i think i'd love to die alone - live and breathe and die alone

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Wed, 17 Oct 2007 07:25:08 GMT

Title//Faded
Pairing//SK
Genre//Angst
Timeline//After Sawyer cons Kelly’s parents
Prompt//’We were so perfect but not ever lasting’ taken from the song Florida Plates preformed by Pencey Prep
Summary//Kelly feels like what she had with Sawyer was the perfect relationship but she finds herself clawing for memories that she just can’t reach

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Did all relationships feel this way when they were finished, was everyone left wondering how they were supposed to go on after their heart had been broken? Kelly’s heart hadn’t been broken before now and she wondered if it was going to be like this every single time. If so, then she was going to stop dating because this feeling was the worst in the whole world, it was worse than being grounded and locked into her room when it was Ruth’s huge monster birthday party.
It was like she was locked inside herself without anyway to escape this depression, it was as if it had consumed her and now she was just its prisoner. She had never been depressed before in her life, she had gone through the angry teenager stage but she had been angry, frustrated and ready to scream not so depressed that she wanted to kill herself. It felt like she couldn’t even move without her whole body aching out just to see his face again.
She knew that she should hate him because he had used her and he had played her like the foolish little teenage girl she was but for some reason she couldn’t get him off her mind. She felt as if she couldn’t hate him, like she was still in love with him for some reason. It was stupid for her to feel like she was in love with him in the first place, they’d had sex once and suddenly she was ready to spend the rest of her life with him, she couldn’t spend the rest of her life living like this.
It wasn’t just the fact that he’d left her that was making her depressed either, he was the only thing that she had left but he’d left anyway. It made her wonder if he had ever loved her anyway, if all the things he had said to her were true and she quickly reminded herself that she shouldn’t think that any shit he told her was true anymore because in the end it was all just a con to get money off her parents.
She was supposed to believe that he had never loved her and that it had all been apart of his con but when they were together everything had felt so real. Of course it was supposed to feel real, it was his job to make girls feel like he truly cared about them just so he could get their money. She wished that she had known that he was playing her so maybe then she wouldn’t have let herself fall in love with him.
Admitting to herself that she was in love with him was probably a really stupid thing to do, it seemed to hurt more after she’d realized that she loved him. If she had just been lusting after him then it wouldn’t have hurt as much as it did now that she knew that she was in love with him. She wished that she wasn’t in love with him and she could go back in time spending less time with him so she didn’t let herself fall in love with him.
If she had something to knock her out right now and just stop all these conflicting thoughts in her mind she would be happy for a long long time. She just wanted to stop thinking about it because the more she thought about it the angrier she got with herself and the more she wished that it had never happened. It was annoying going around in these circles arguing with herself every single day and she wished that there was someway to make it all stop.
She had often contemplated going to see him, to talk to him and to find out what had been real between them finally setting the record straight. But going to see him probably wouldn’t do her any good, it would probably just make her feel even worse about the whole situation. She would probably see him, he’d smile at her and she would instantly be under his spell again, there was just no way for her to escape it, she was a fool for him.
Being a hormonal teenage girl she was a fool for love, she believed in love above all other things and she was just aching to find her true love one day. She was foolish enough to believe that he was her true love so she certainly wasn’t ready to let whatever they had go just yet. Was she really a fool, or was there really something there, she would probably never find out because she would probably never pluck up the courage to talk to him ever again.
But the main thing that she kept coming back to was that it had felt so real making her wonder if he had felt it as well or if it was just a game to him. She really didn’t expect him to say that he loved her now but he had said it when he had taken her and she had believed it. The way that he had been staring so deeply into her eyes, the way that he had been so serious, there was nothing she wanted to do more than believe that he was telling her the truth.
It couldn’t all just be a game could it, he had to have some other emotion in his being except for greed and she wished that she could know what was going on inside of him right now. Was he thinking about her, was he wondering if she was alright and was he going around in the same circles that she had been going around in for the last few days? She didn’t want to think that he had just gone onto his next con without even thinking about her feelings, she wanted to believe that he was still thinking about her wondering if she was alright.
She wondered if he was maybe staring at the telephone the way she had been, waiting for it to ring or asking himself repeatedly if maybe he should call her. She really felt as if she should call him, he was always the one making the first move so maybe it was her turn to do it. But she didn’t want to make a fool out of herself, she had done that enough times in front of him already without adding to calling him when he was in the middle of having sex with his newest con.
No matter how many times she tried to convince herself that he was the bad guy and that she had to hate him she really couldn’t stop loving him. She didn’t want to think about the fact that he might be having sex with some other girl that he cared almost as little about as he did her. He might have even left the country, gone back to America to spend his new winnings on booze and a long line of prostitutes.
She had always lived up in a fantasy land for most of her life, making up little realities for her to live in so she didn’t have to face her real problems and she supposed that was what she was doing right now. She was telling herself that he was still in love with her and that he was thinking about her right now so she didn’t have to admit the truth to herself. She wasn’t ready to face up and admit what was true, she was just living in a fantasy land waiting for him to return to her.
The harsh truth was that he would probably never return to her, whatever they’d had together was now officially gone leaving her all alone while he went off to his next job. Whatever they’d had together was gone and she was grasping tightly at all the memories that she had left of him. It was like she had a photo album full of memories of him but the album was starved of memories, when she strained her memory to think about him she could barely remember anything.
It probably wouldn’t be long before she forgot everything, she didn’t have any pictures of him so it wouldn’t be long before she forgot the way he looked. When she came to realize that the memories would fade it only made her grasp for them even harder but they just continued to slip away leaving her with nothing but emptiness. It wouldn’t be long before she moved on and it would be as if they had never happened.
But she didn’t want to move on and forget that it had happened, she didn’t want to be angry, it had been one of the best times of her life, why would she want to forget it. He may have hurt her and he may have been lying to her the whole time, but she didn’t care, the feelings he had provided her with were ones that she had only dreamed of before. What if it had never happened and she was still stuck in a dead-end relationship with Daniel?
She wanted to go back to what they’d had with each other, she didn’t care if it was fake she just wanted it back more than she had wanted anything in her whole life. She sat up slowly on her bed looking at the telephone sitting in its cradle on her bedside table. Was she going to let all the memories just fade away, was she just going to lie there like an idiot for the rest of her life never knowing if he really loved her or not?
Slowly she reached out her trembling hand and grasped the telephone with it taking in many deep breaths as she held onto it tightly. This was as far as she had made it to calling him, she couldn’t believe she was actually about to pick up the phone when she hadn’t picked it up, even when it was ringing, since he’d disappeared. She had been avoiding the phone all together and she wasn’t really sure if she was ready to do this.
The phones smooth, cold surface felt weird and almost alien on her palm, it was as if she hadn’t touched it in years, it made her feel a little afraid. She pulled herself over closer to the edge of the bed and closer to the phone, ready to reach out to press all the buttons after she had pressed it to her ear. The phone felt heavy in her hand as she slowly lifted it up from the cradle, it felt like several minutes before she felt the cold surface pressed into her ear.
She heard the dial tone in her ear and it seemed to suddenly sober her to the truth, suddenly everything became clear to her as if it had been brought right up to her face. She flinched as if she had received an electric shock and slammed the phone back down moving back onto the bed properly. She left her legs dangling over the side of the bed as she buried her face into her hands wanting the truth to go away.
Not admitting the truth was so much better than this, living in a little fantasy world where everything was perfect and Sawyer still cared about her was a million times better than this. It was as if she had been blind to the truth but now it had been shoved rudely into her face. She realized that she couldn’t remember how his lips felt pushed up against hers and she certainly couldn’t remember the other sensations he had given her anymore.
She had been so sure that it was perfect, that it was meant to be and that nothing would ever split them up but it seemed that she was so very wrong. If it was perfect then wouldn’t it be like Romeo and Juliet and they would never be torn apart from each other for as long as they lived? Kelly believed that Romeo and Juliet was the ultimate love story and she guessed that when she had first met Sawyer she thought that they would be like that.
Relationships that were perfect never had any reason to end, the only end that these relationships saw was death but that was still a romantic end but in the case of she and Sawyer there was no romantic end. He had finished his con so he had moved on to the next one, there was nothing the tiniest bit romantic about that. If she wanted to remember what it felt like to be curled up in his arms she would but she couldn’t and she felt that maybe a part of her mind was locking her out of those memories because they would only lead her into believing something could happen between she and Sawyer.
Nothing would ever happen between she and Sawyer ever again, he was gone forever and she’d be lucky to ever see him again, she was a fool to think that it had been perfect. All that she had left were the memories that were fading away from her, she would never get him back and she would never get those memories back. The rest of her life would be spent like this, she would never be with him again because what they had was the furthest thing one could get to perfect.

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Sun, 12 Aug 2007 03:48:31 GMT

Title//The Hardest Goodbye
Pairing//Jeg
Genre//Romance/Drama
Timeline//Based when Johnny goes off to jail for the first time
Prompt//Johnny and Meg having to say goodbye to each other and almost doing it
Warning//Pornographic themes & course language
Summary//Johnny knows that he's going away and there's not a thing he can do to change it so he has to spend his last moments with Meg wisely.

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The music continued to play loudly from the speakers as most of the party-goers sat around completely oblivious to the drama or just too damn stoned to care about anything anymore. Johnny rushed back into the house searching around frantically for Meg, she could not have gotten far he had only stepped outside with Paul for about a minute and Meg always did what he asked of her so when he told her not to move he did not doubt she would still be there when he returned.
But when he looked to the couch where he had left Meg it was empty and his heart instantly began speeding, where could she have gone? He needed her right now, he knew he was in deep trouble and before he actually admitted to it he had to get to Meg. It was also not a good thing that Johnny had no idea where Meg was in a party like this where any kind of shit could happen to sweet innocent Meg.
He began muttering curse words under his breath as he began to search around for Meg, he pushed past people searching for her short black hair and pale skin amongst everyone else. He had been going to parties like this since he was fourteen and he knew how to make his way through a crowd but he was stressed now that Meg was not right where he left her especially when he needed to spend every last second that he could with her.
His breath was short in his throat and he could hear his heart pounding in his ears blocking out the sound of the loud metal music. He was in deep shit with the authority and now he had lost Meg, oh fuck her mother was going to murder him with her bare hands. Meg should not have been here in the first place, Johnny should not have let her come, he should have taken better care of her and made sure she was safe, he should have done something anything was better than letting her out of his sight for four seconds at a party like this.
As he was trying to force his way through the crowd to get to the stairs so he could look for Meg up there his vision suddenly went black as a pair of hands covered his eyes up. He instantly grabbed one of the persons wrists before he heard a small voice in his ear.
“Guess who?” The voice whispered.
He instantly relaxed when he recognized the huskiness of Meg’s voice, he let go of her wrist slightly smiling as he felt his whole body relax. He took her hands off from his eyes turning around to face her smiling face. He put his hands on her upper-arms leaning his head against hers as he looked deeply into her dark eyes. “Where did you go?”
She shrugged her shoulder innocently. “I had to pee, is that a crime?”
He rolled his eyes smiling at her as he let go of her arms before taking one of her hands in his securely making sure she would never move from his sight until she was safe back in her own room. “Come with me.”
He really did not know what he was going to say to her or what he was going to do with her but he knew that he had to be somewhere alone with her so he could give her something comforting to remember him by before he disappeared. He had no idea what he was going to do but he knew he could not hide and he knew that the only person he wanted to be with was Meg.
They had known each other for a few years now and it seemed that every day she began to trust him more so he had no idea how she was going to react if he told her that he was going away to prison for possession of drugs. She probably would not take it well at all and she might even get angry at him so he decided it was best if he just did not tell her, she was better off not knowing anyway.
In his eyes she was sweet, innocent little virgin Meg and he had no doubt that she would always appear that way to her so why did he want to take her when he knew he could not? If he tried to take her virginity and she let him he knew it would only end in diaster, it was just too bad that he could not stop thinking about it. If they did have sex it would not change the fact that he would have to leave and his leaving would upset her even more if she did give herself to him.
He had to make it as painless as he could when he left but he really wanted to be with her and he wanted to let her know how he felt, it was not as if he could just tell her, they both knew that he sucked with words, actions had always been his forte.
It was not like he had never had sex with a girl before but this was not just an ordinary boring girl that he would forget the next day, this was Meg, his Meg. He had said to Meg at least a million times that she belonged to him and nobody would ever take her away from him so how would she react when he was taken away?
Did he think he was doing the right thing by sleeping with her and giving her what she wanted before he left because even he knew that it was just a stupid excuse to cover up the fact that he was in love with her as well as a little afraid of how she would react when she did see that he was gone. He knew Meg was not just another of these girls that he handled all the time and that she was not just hanging around with him for sex.
Meg was different from everyone else and he was special to her but he could not resist the voice in the back of his mind that was telling him everything would work out better if he did sleep with her. She was still a virgin and she was expecting something special for her first time so if he took that away from her selfishly just to satisfy himself he knew it would gnaw at him from the inside.
Even if he knew all this he did not stop himself from leading her into the secluded bedroom where everything was dark save for the moonlight that was leaking into the room and it did not stop him from thinking about how much he wanted her at all. He let go of her hand once they were inside the bedroom and turned his back on her as he closed the door locking it to make sure they would not be interrupted.
He had been in this room a million times before and it had not changed over the years at all, they always kept it the same way. The room was completely bare except for the lonely squeaky single bed that had not had sheets on it since Johnny had been coming here for parties and it had a blank desk shoved up against the wall where a few people had left beer cups behind but beside that it was just a bare room with a window bringing in the moonlight.
Meg looks around completely oblivious to what is going on inside Johnny’s mind as she raises her eyebrows at the dull surroundings. “Can we maybe turn the light on?” She asks not even looking at him as she looks through the barely lit room for some sort of light-switch.
He stands in front of the locked door facing her, staring at her through the moonlight his mouth feeling dry as he finally brings himself to speak. “The light doesn’t work.”
“Oh.” She replies slowly before shrugging looking over at him innocently. “So what’s up?”
He moves toward her slowly staring at her intensely as her cheeks begin to turn dark, she knows something is going on. “You’re so beautiful in the moonlight.”
She laughs bashfully tucking some of her short hair behind her ear looking away from him as he continues to make his way over to her. “Thanks.”
He stands in front of her their bodies barely an inch apart as he slides his hands down her arms before he slips his hands into hers his eyes never leaving hers for a second. “I mean it Meg, you’re so beautiful.”
She is looking into his eyes, staring into them searching for something and he can feel her body trembling against his. She slowly takes in a breath swallowing before she speaks. “What’s going on?”
He moves his face closer to hers resting the side of his face against hers so he can whisper into her ear as he wraps his arms around her waist loosely. “Just close your eyes.” He can hear her let out a sigh as she leans against him a little and he kisses her softly on the cheek before checking to see her eyes are closed with a smile on her face. He reaches up brushing some hair out of her face. “You remember when I promised you that you belonged to me?”
She nods slowly as he begins to feel something hard building in his pants. “Yeah.” She smiles her eyes remaining closed as she just smiles on unaware of what is going on. “How could I forget, you remind me all the time.”
“Good.” He replies feeling breathless. “Because I mean it.”
He had been attracted to Meg for a long time and he had thought about how much he wanted to be with her before but he had never got this excited about thinking about it. It could have been the alcohol giving him a buzz or it could have just been how gorgeous she looked in the moonlight or it could have been the feeling deep down inside that was telling him this was the last time that they would be together for he did not know how long.
Loosing Meg was like a nightmare coming true to him and the thought of going all the way with her right now in this room was beginning to get more logical to him. The lust was now making its way through his body making him even harder as everything but kissing Meg and taking him for his own was blocked out of his mind.
What was there really to loose? They loved each other, sure they did not say it but he loved her and by the way she acted he knew that she loved him too. It was not like she was just loosing her virginity to some random wanker because that was what all her friends were doing, Johnny cared about her and as soon as he got the chance he would return to her, this was the best way for her to remember him making sure that nothing went un-done by either of them.
He had been thinking about doing this for a very long time and if it happened tonight would she really regret it? He did not think she would and if she did not want to he would stop if she asked him to, he was just making the first move she could shut him down if she wanted to. He had not been this nervous about starting something with a girl in a long time.
This was Meg, sweet oblivious precious little Meg so he had to be gentle with her he could not just slam her down like all the other girls and pelt himself into her repeatedly this had to be a dream come true for her so it had to be gentle, he could do gentle, right about now he would do anything just so he could make Meg his.
“Johnny…” She begins through the darkness causing him to slip out of his daze opening his eyes to meet her questioning glance. “…what are we doing in here?”
“Shh.” He hushes her before he begins moving them over to the bed, he has been on top of her many times before when they were making out but he has never been this hard while they were making out before.
She is not shocked or scared when only seconds after she has laid down on the bed he has moved on top of her beginning to kiss her hungrily. He is careful to keep his pelvis elevated above her making sure it does not make contact with her and she cannot feel what is going on in his pants, he knew it was too quick he could not just thrust it upon her then expect her to agree with him going as far as he liked.
Normally when they kissed he would be gentle with her and take it slowly savouring the taste of her making sure he did not rush her but he was filled with lust so his arms were wrapped around her neck as he kissed her passionately. He knew that he was kissing her harder than usual and he knew that she had never been kissed like this before, she was not used to it, she did not know what to do.
He did not mean to rush her but he was filled with lust and the only thing he wanted right now was her, just her. He put a knee between her legs very slowly pushing them apart without her even realizing what he was doing as she bent one of her legs up on the bed beside his body. She did not seem uncomfortable with him kissing her so hard and she did not seem like she wanted him to stop so he could not help but continue.
A hand that had been in her hair at the back of her head giving him full access to her mouth moved down her body to the leg that was beside his body. He gripped her leg holding onto it tightly as he slowly began lowering his whole body to her moving his pelvis down to connect with hers. There had been plenty of times when they had shared the same bed where she had woken up with his dick sticking into her back but she had never had it this close to her before and when it happened while he was asleep he did not really mean for it to happen, she must have known now how much he wanted her.
She stopped kissing him obviously shocked as she let go of his upper-arms a little, he slowly opened his eyes looking back at her. She was looking at him with wide eyes like she was afraid of what would happen or maybe she had figured out that something was going on. He doubted that she knew something was going on, he thought she was just shocked by how far they had actually gotten. He had never been on top of her kissing her when he was erect and ready to go.
She did not tell him to get off her or to move away from her she just stared up at him with her wide eyes searching his for something. He had no idea what to say to her, did she want to do it anymore, was she really scared? The only thing he could think of was to ease her into the idea, it was just basic instincts to him now that he had done it practically a thousand times.
He removed his hand from her leg before pressing a finger onto her lips, he stared into her eyes pushing himself a little closer to her. He knew she could feel it right up against her body now, it would be a fucking miracle if she could not feel it right now but judging by the way her eyes grew wider and she gaped a little she could obviously feel it.
She seemed a little scared which did not shock him at all, everyone was scared for their first time especially Meg who had waited so long to keep herself for the right guy and he did not even know if he would ever be seeing her again. But still she did not object and she did not give any sign that she did not want him, making him only want to go even further from here, not that here was very far for him but he knew it was the furthest she had ever been with a guy.
After staring in her eyes for a little while longer he searched her eyes for any kind of objection before he started kissing her again. Normally when they were kissing or going a little bit further they would take everything slowly, they would savour every single moment that they had with each other so they could remember exactly how they looked and exactly how they tasted but tonight was nothing like that, it was rushed but she was not pulling back or telling him no so he saw no reason why he should stop.
He moved himself closer and closer to her until he was as close as he could get, he knew that there was no going back now he could not just tease her like this then get up leaving her for God only knew how long. She was holding onto his upper-arms tightly pressing her body against his kissing him back almost as hungrily as he was kissing her.
If there were any kind of sign that he needed to let him know that she wanted it almost as much as he did it was how intensely she was kissing him back. Even though he had always thought she would never be ready now it seemed that she actually was. He had not wanted to rush her at the start but now she seemed willing to follow where he was leading her so it seemed she was encouraging him to just do whatever the heck he wanted to do with her trying to follow.
Still kissing her passionately with one hand up on the back of her head holding her close to him he moved his hand down to his own fly and popped the button open. She noticed what he was doing and linked her arms around his neck still kissing him but slowing herself down a bit, he knew that she wanted to savour it but he did not think he would be able to stay much longer if he did not get started soon he would not be able to get started at all.
He unzipped the fly pulling his pants down a bit so he could get his penis out of his pants before thrusting himself onto her crotch. She pulled back from kissing him her head falling backwards a little as she gaped loudly almost jumping out of his reach. He held onto her tightly his penis still pressed against her covered crotch.
Now his body was completely taken over by lust and passion that he did not think he would be able to stand just lying here with her like this any longer so he had to go the whole way. She was looking at him with uncertainty in her eyes as he moved his hand up to run it through the front of her short hair trying to ease her into it.
“Shh.” He whispered to her his lips only inches from hers. “I won’t hurt you; I promise I’ll be gentle.”
Her eyes locked with his, she searched them for a few seconds before she nodded at him encouraging him to go on. He smiled shyly at her before he leant forward kissing her again but this time a little softer but it began to get harder and soon his lips were crushing against hers as his hands caressed up the sides of her body pulling her shirt up with his hands.
It was getting faster and he knew now it would not take much longer until he was inside of her, until she would know exactly what ‘it’ felt like, he could be inside of her, they could finally be as one. She helped him guide her shirt off her body before their lips met again and his hands found the sides of her face. She held onto his wrists making sure he could not go anywhere, he knew she was scared but he knew he would not hurt her, at least not straight away.
Even if she was scared she did not stop him when he began to un-do her jeans, it was not her that stopped him it was something else. It was Paul spilling into the room creating quite a racket behind them causing him to pause from trying to pull her pants down their lips disconnecting as he pulled himself up looking over his shoulder at his best friend.
“They’re comin’ man, if we wanna get rid of the worst stuff we gotta get moving now!” Paul urged before he paused looking at the position that Meg and Johnny were in. His eyes grew wide before he smiled nervously at them. “I’ll…uh-…I’ll give you guys a minute to say goodbye.”
The door closed and Johnny sat up on his knees raking his hair out of his face before he began doing his pants back up, the passion was completely gone it was just time for him to say goodbye to Meg now. She had pushed herself up into a sitting position against the metal bed head her hand to forehead as she looked up at him confusion clear on her face.
Guilt began creeping through his body as he finished doing his pants up while she just sat there, her black bra revealed as her top was still lying on the ground and her pants un-done but barely slid down at all, it was like he had only thought about doing the job properly then pulled out. He should not have started this in the first place, if he knew that he needed to go then he should not have started, he knew that if it were anyone but Meg he would not have started or he would have been finished by now.
Little innocent virgin Meg just sat there on the bed as he sat back realizing he would have to say something instead of just disappearing, it was not like he never wanted to see her again. He wanted to see her again very much, the first thing he did once he got free would be to see her straight away but he had to take the wrap for what he had done so that he could leave drugs behind forever, Meg had never approved of them and he had always wanted to give them up he just did not see any other way that he would be able to.
She was so confused and he had no idea what to say to make this situation any better, words had never been his forte he was always just doing actions that he thought suited the moment. Most of the time when it was just him and her he would find words coming a lot easier than they normally did, everything was easier around her but no matter what he would probably never be able to ease the heartache she would feel for the next however long he was going away for.
He slowly moved forward placing his hands down onto the bed in front of him between him and Meg, she looked at him slightly afraid curling her arms up close to her chest, she was scared, he was so sorry for making her afraid he knew now that he never should have started that in the first place. He moved across the bed until his face was an inch away from hers.
She made a quiet noise of protest moving her face to the side but he knew he was not going to do anything to hurt her further now so he did not move. He nuzzled against her cheek a little before kissing her softly on the cheek whispering into her ear.
“I’ll come back for you.” He whispered the heat of his breath going onto her cheek making her look slowly back at him. “But you gotta promise me that you’re not gonna look for me and you’re not gonna spend all you’re time pouting.”
“Where are you going?” She asked tears flooding into her eyes as she took one of his hands in one of hers.
“I’m just goin’-…I’m just goin’ away Meg.” He said, he knew he could not tell her that he was going to the big house for drug possession, she would probably go mental so he reached up running a hand through her short black hair. “I’ll write to you every single day I promise and I won’t stop thinking about you for a second, you’ll be here when I come back won’t you?”
She sighed looking down glumly. “Yeah.”
He put a hand under her chin tilting her head back up so he could look into her eyes. “I will be back, just give it some time.”
“How long are you going for?” She asked as the first tear made its way down her cheek.
“I don’t know.” He replied wiping her cheek with his thumb. “But this could be good for us, give us time to think about what we really want and when I come back we can be together for as long as we want, no one will ever take me away from you again.”
“When will you be back?”
He sighed feeling so hopeless that he could not give her a straight answer, either he did not have one or he did not have the heart to tell her, this whole conversation was a minefield of problems. “I don’t know, but I promise you I will be back.”
She smiled weakly at him. “Really?”
“Yeah.” He nodded. “The Devil himself couldn’t keep me away from you.”
She laughed a soft laugh before looking at him with sorrow filling her dark eyes. “I’ll miss you.”
He kissed her softly on the nose. “I’ll never stop thinking about you.”
Before he completely let himself go and began crying right there in front of her he pulled her into his arms tightly. He wrapped his arms tightly around her shoulders her head resting in his neck as she began to cry loudly. He rested his chin on the top of her head as silent tears slowly made their way down the sides of his face.
This could not be the end between he and Meg, he knew that he would get out of jail and he would come straight back here for her but would she still feel the same way? He knew that she was in love with him but he could not expect her to wait the whole time while he was in jail without her knowing anything about where he was or why he was suddenly gone from her life.
She had been planning to move to L.A for the past month or so and she was only a week away from leaving but now he doubted that she would leave, she would probably stay just to wait for him. He should never have let her fall in love with him in the first place then maybe he would not be in love with her and he would not be crying like a baby about leaving her behind.
Leaving people behind was not something that was new to Johnny, he had been doing it for the majority of his life, he had left his whole family behind and it had never affected him this deeply. He wished that he did not have to go. He wished that they could have kept going, he wished that they could have become one so then he would never have to leave and they could be together for the rest of their days but how could he be sure that she would want him when he came back.
He had done it at least twenty times before but this was the hardest goodbye he would ever have to give to anyone and he knew Meg would not take it well. He knew all about her eating disorder even if she had not spoken about it to him in a long time he had a feeling she would probably go days where she would not eat while he was gone, he should not be leaving her, she was too weak to be by herself and he felt so guilty for doing such a thing to her.
But he could not be something he was not, he was a drug addict and a complete fool for love so every time a pretty girl who looked like a lost cause walked on by he had to fix them. Meg was just one pretty little girl that he should have left alone, he should have settled for girls who were like him, girls who did drugs, drank until they thought they were going to go blind for the rest of their lives and girls who had not been virgins for a very long time but he had to fall for Meg, of all the girls on the planet he was drawn in by the girl who was practically an angel compared to him.
She was too good for him but she did not know that and he let himself fall in love with her innocent charm only to end up here. It was all just to end up in a room where Johnny had seduced girls millions of times before with Meg topless while they sat together their arms wrapped around each other trying to savour the last moments that they had together, trying to make sure they would never forget how they felt in each others arms.
Their moment was ruined when he heard Paul knocking on the door loudly, Johnny pulled back looking Meg in the eyes before stealing one last kiss off her staring into her eyes holding a hand on the side of her face as she heaved in deep breaths after crying for so long.
“You belong to me.” He told her meaning what he was saying right now more than he had ever meant anything in his whole entire life. “Nothing is ever going to change that.”
“Don’t leave.” She whimpered.
He kissed her softly on the forehead. “I have to.” He whispered against her skin pausing for a few moments before he got up looking down at her.
She was sitting there on the bed her legs crossed, her hands limply held in her lap as she looked up at him, her bottom lip was trembling and he knew she would be crying again soon. There was so much he could say to her but when he opened his mouth to say something no words came so he closed his mouth again turning and leaving the room knowing that if he stayed for any longer this whole situation would only get harder.
He met up with Paul and left the house, it was best to get this over with already, the sooner he got there the sooner he would be back to Meg.

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Sun, 22 Jul 2007 03:16:34 GMT

Title//Your Saviour
Pairing//Sawyer/Kelly
Genre//Drama/Angst
Timeline//Based season 1, Raised by Another and the aftermath
Prompt//‘Counting down’
Summary//Sawyer wishes he could remember where they had taken her, maybe then he’d be able to get her back and shut Chucky up.

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It had been three days since she had disappeared but to him it felt like much longer, the days seemed to be stretching on with everything going on for what felt like forever. The Doc had stopped him from going out and looking for her anymore, apparently he was wearing himself down. He didn’t see who needed him here at camp so the place he was needed to be was out in the jungle, if only he could slip away he might be able to remember where they had her.
He couldn’t remember much about getting to the place as they’d drugged him in the jungle then he’d just woken up in that fucking cage and he had looked around for a way out but they had him pretty much caged in. He was pretty sure that he would have no idea how to get back there but he would still try it, he needed her back and with Charlie just sitting around feeling sorry for himself Sawyer really needed to do something to get Kelly back.
She had been having terrible nightmares and she was off to the beach where she felt safer, Sawyer had already been off to the beach now that he was finished at the caves so she’d followed him getting him in trouble with the Doc as Charlie quickly followed them including himself where he wasn’t needed as per usual for the little pip-squeak.
Charlie instantly made his presence known annoying both Sawyer and Kelly immediately as he pretended to act all casual like nothing bad was going on. Sawyer had just rolled his eyes deciding he wasn’t going to say anything to Chucky Cheese because they would probably start arguing and he was going to be on Kelly’s side landing Chucky in trouble.
He’d asked Kelly what Sawyer was doing there like he couldn’t hear them talking and like he wasn’t even there causing Sawyer to glare over at him feeling anger bubble in his stomach. Kelly just sighed placing a hand to her forehead continuing to struggle with her bag that Chucky hadn’t even bothered to ask if he could help her with at all yet.
Kelly seemed annoyed with Charlie and told him in a snappy voice that she had followed Sawyer so it wasn’t his fault she was out here. Sawyer would have gloated due to Charlie’s expression clearly showing that he was jealous and he had nothing to say in return but Sawyer’s attention was caught on Kelly who was holding onto her stomach tightly her breath short.
“You okay?” He had asked looking at her in concern causing Charlie to stop pouting and instantly jump to being Kelly’s hero.
“What is it?” Charlie asked as Kelly stopped.
She couldn’t say anything in reply, she had her hands grasped onto her stomach and she was doubling over panting loudly before she began to groan in pain. Charlie’s face turned green while Sawyer knew exactly what was going on and exactly what needed to be done, he had always been more experienced than Charlie in all areas.
“It’s the baby.” Sawyer stated.
Kelly drew in a deep breath planting her hands on her knees and looking up at them slowly; she nodded at Sawyer before speaking breathlessly. “Yeah.”
“The baby?” Charlie repeated obviously shitting his big-boy pants. “Like contractions?”
Sawyer rolled his eyes. “Oh no shit Sherlock, obviously your baby is coming.”
“So we have to time the contractions.” Charlie offered.
Sawyer rolled his eyes again his eyebrows raising before he put a hand on Kelly’s arched back rubbing it soothing and bending over to talk to her quietly. “It’s okay, just relax and close your eyes, we’ll be out of this before you know it.”
Charlie glared at Sawyer as Kelly took one of his hands holding onto it tightly leaning her head on his chest. “Um last time I checked this was my baby, not yours.”
“Look why don’t you make yourself useful and go get Jack.” Sawyer offered trying to shake Charlie off.
“What if something happens to her?” Charlie asked getting all worked up. “I’m not leaving her here.”
“I can take care of her for a while.” Sawyer said.
“No.” Charlie snapped stubbornly.
Kelly looked up slowly still panting heavily. “Charlie, I’ll be fine, please…we need help.”
“But…”
“Charlie!” Kelly snapped causing him to jump. “Go get Jack.”
Charlie nodded scared of his missus, he didn’t want to mess with her, he squeezed her arm planting a soft kiss on her cheek glaring at Sawyer one last time before he rushed off waving his arms around in front of him like he was a retard. After rolling his eyes at Charlie’s bizarre running style Sawyer’s attention was returned to Kelly who was still gasping for air and holding onto his hand tightly.
She straightened up with him instantly stepping closer to her putting an arm around her shoulders rubbing her shoulder affectionately as she leant her head against his chest again before groaning loudly in pain. He soothed her, a little amazed at how calm he was himself before he offered for her to sit down. They sat down together with her hand still clasped around his causing it to sting but he didn’t tell her to stop.
“Oh God this isn’t supposed to happen like this.” Kelly groaned rubbing a hand over her stomach.
He reached up and rubbed his hand across her shoulders in a soothing motion. “I know, don’t worry we’ll get out of this. Charlie’s a quick runner he’ll get Jack here in no time.”
She squeezed his hand tightly before smiling weakly at him. “Thanks.”
He shrugged his shoulder at her. “It’s no big deal.”
“It’s just nice having someone to talk to.” She told him looking into his eyes with an innocent smile on her face.
He couldn’t help but admire her as she sat in front of him looking so beautiful even though she was all dirty and sweaty. Kelly had always had a certain way about her that set her out from the rest, she always had a smile on her face and no matter how bad things always got he could depend on her to be there to supply some happy thought that would distract them from the drama.
When he first met her he didn’t really expect her to be the type of girl that would fight for what she wanted and would grow up so damn quickly right in front of his eyes. He could remember how she had looked the very first time he had met her and he had never expected that when they were flirting with each other that she would become such a beautiful young woman.
She had an inner strength that he had no idea she’d been hiding, somehow she had managed not to break down completely over the situation she was being faced with. The girl that he had once known and slept with was now gone. He knew that if this had happened when Kelly was still angry at the world, when she was still young she probably wouldn’t have survived this but she had grown up so much from that angry little teenager.
He didn’t want to let go of her hand and even though there was that monster out here in this forest he didn’t really care, he would still here forever with her smiling at her. Of course the moment didn’t last for too long when she wanted him to feel the baby moving – Charlie’s baby that pip-squeak didn’t even want and was trying to make Kelly give away.
Even though he didn’t want to touch the baby because the thought of Kelly being left alone with that thing while Charlie went off pretending to be a rock star again was one Sawyer had thought of often. It wouldn’t surprise Sawyer at all if the little pip-squeak began avoiding her here on the island after she had the baby. Soon his hand was on her stomach and he could feel the baby moving around underneath causing his heart to flutter at the grin on her face as she pressed her hand down onto his making sure he couldn’t move his hand.
For a small girl she was pretty powerful especially with the use of her hands, which had turned him on in earlier times but right now he wasn’t really thankful for it. His hand was beginning to sting from all the pressure she was putting on it but it was a good pressure and he didn’t ask her to relieve her hand. She looked so cute grinning at the baby that was growing inside of her with her eyes all lit up it was like magic.
Unfortunately for him Kelly suddenly took in a deep breath exhaling slowly as the baby settled down a bit and she released his hand. He was quick to replace his hand on her shoulder looking her deeply into her eyes as she put her arms loosely around her stomach taking in a few more deep breaths.
“You know what…” She began.
“What?” He replied readjusting her bag on him realizing she wanted to get moving again when she put her hands on the ground beside her trying to get herself up.
“…I think he likes you.” She said as he jumped up giving her his hands to help her up with.
Sawyer furrowed his brow as she dusted her butt off. “He? Who?”
“The baby.” She replied as if it was plain obvious and he was an idiot for not seeing it.
His eyes widened. “Oh.” Then he paused furrowing his brow. “You know the sex?”
“No of course not.” She replied quickly. “Charlie wouldn’t let them tell us he said it’d spoil the surprise so I’m just guessing and I think it’s a boy.”
“What’d you do? Look into your crystal ball?” He asked sarcastically.
She rolled her eyes shaking her head at him. “No, now come on, which way should we go?”
He sighed looking around the jungle at the path they had made to the direction that they needed to follow if they wanted to get back to the beach. “Back to the caves is probably a shorter walk and you should probably get Jack to take a look at ya.”
She furrowed her brow at him. “I thought you were going to the beach.”
He shrugged like it was nothing. “Someone’s gotta take care of you.”
“We should probably wait for Charlie to get back.” She told him quickly.
He paused from going to lead her off and turned back to her. “Oh yeah, do you wanna just stay here and wait?”
“Well…” She began only to stop putting a hand to her stomach laughing again, she looked down at her stomach obviously talking to it. “Somebody is demanding Mummy’s attention today, aren’t ya?”
Sawyer stood there a little awkwardly waiting for her to finish giggling then she reached out grabbing his hand and plastering it against her stomach where he could feel the baby kicking again. “Jeez Beautiful you don’t have to be so rough, if you wanted me to touch you all you had to do was ask.”
She laughed rolling her eyes at him. “Don’t get too excited.”
“I’ll try not to.” He told her quietly before smiling at the baby pushing against Kelly’s insides. “I think your kid is excited enough for the two of us.”
She smiled rubbing her other hand over the rest of her stomach. “That’s the proof that it’s Charlie’s, only Charlie’s son would go this crazy when it got some attention.”
As if hearing his name and taking that as his que Charlie burst out of the bushes panting heavily as he stumbled over to them causing Kelly to quickly let go of Sawyer’s hand on her stomach when Charlie’s eyes widened, obviously he had seen Sawyer’s hand under hers on her stomach. He approached them slowly taking in deep breaths trying to say something but no words were coming out just yet.
Sawyer couldn’t stop himself from rolling his eyes, how pathetic could Charlie be? It didn’t take much to just take in a deep breath and wait to talk until he had his breath. Charlie was like a little kid hyped up on red cordial and always bouncing around, just this ball of excitement that was constantly twitching. Sawyer thought Charlie was off drugs maybe they had just messed with his brain and he couldn’t sit still anymore, that was why Sawyer gave them up after five days it was exciting for a while but then he just got over it.
Charlie scampered over to them and began talking quickly as soon as he had his breath. “Are you okay? You shouldn’t be standing you should be resting.”
“Charlie…” Kelly said holding her hand out to him while holding the other hand on her stomach with Sawyer’s hand on her upper-arm keeping her steady. “…I’m fine really; I promise I wouldn’t be standing if I wasn’t fine.”
“Alright.” Charlie nodded. “Well I got Ethan to go get Jack.”
While Kelly nodded Sawyer’s eyebrows shot up, he had barely interacted with anyone on this island beside arguing and driving Kate crazy so he didn’t really know names, he knew the nick names he had though. Ethan? That definitely didn’t ring a bell; maybe he lived at the caves so now he and Charlie were cave-buddies.
Even though Kelly seemed okay with the fact that this Ethan guy was looking out for her Sawyer didn’t, he had always been protective of Kelly and he felt even more protective of her. Here you didn’t know who you could trust especially if she had someone attacking her in the middle of the night, for all they knew this Ethan guy could be the one who was trying to hurt her baby.
“Ethan?” Sawyer repeated tightening his grip on Kelly’s arm getting her attention as he pulled her over to him. “Who the hell is Ethan?”
Charlie’s eyebrows instantly shot up he knew that Sawyer didn’t trust him, not now and not ever. “Don’t you trust me? Look I think I know how to take care of my own girlfriend.”
“Right so that’s why she’s been getting attacked.” Sawyer snapped back sarcastically.
Kelly looked from one to the other her eyes wide with confusion, once again they were making her pick between the two of them without even realizing that they were doing it to her. Of course neither of them meant to do it, it just happened that way because they were always in competition with each other. They had been in a silent competition with each other ever since the very first time they had met and Sawyer had no doubt that if Kelly was taken out of the picture they would still hate each other; Charlie was just plain damn annoying.
Sawyer laughed at the fact that Charlie thought he could take care of Kelly when he could barely take care of himself and he was making her give up her baby, it was clear to Sawyer that Charlie didn’t care about Kelly the way he did.
“I was asleep, I’m sorry that I can’t protect her without sleeping we can’t all be as perfect as you Sawyer.” Charlie replied.
“Well you should be.” Sawyer said. “How do we know this Ethan guy isn’t the one who’s attacking her in the first place?”
Kelly and Charlie both looked at Sawyer at the same time with the same look on their faces before they spoke at the exact time.
“What?”
Before Sawyer could reply they all heard a voice not too far away making them all jump with Charlie moving over to right beside Kelly.
“Hello there.” Ethan said getting their attention.
Kelly’s eyes widened and she looked at the man fearfully causing Sawyer to let go of her upper-arm before wrapping his arm around her shoulders. Charlie grabbed onto her hand looking over at Ethan with his brow furrowed.
“Ethan…where’s Jack?” Charlie asked.
Then it just all went black, Sawyer couldn’t remember anymore from that day but he wished that he could maybe then he’d know where to look for Kelly. He’d been out to the spot where they had been taken from a lot of times looking around trying to jog his memory but he’d been hit in the back of the head and the only way he could remember it was if he hadn’t collapsed.
He felt weak for collapsing, he felt bad that he hadn’t been able to save Kelly and he wished that he had been able to protect her then she still wouldn’t be away with them. If he had been able to protect her she wouldn’t be lost out in that forest she would be here with him. He wished he could remember how to get to her, he wished he remembered where they had been keeping her, maybe then he’d be able to rescue her from whatever those little bitches were doing to her.
He couldn’t remember how he had gotten into that cage but he had woken up in a bear cage out in the dark and he could hear water dripping around him. He had just lied there for a while slowly remembering what had happened and when he remembered Kelly’s fragile body trembling beside him he sat up quickly looking around for her.
They had left him sitting there the whole night out in that cage; he knew that they were watching them with the cameras set up around his cage and every so often one of them would go past with him screaming at them for answers but they would just continue walking acting like they hadn’t heard him. The whole night he had sat there searching for her screaming her name until his throat killed, he needed to know she was okay and if she wasn’t he didn’t know what he’d do to these evil bitches.
It had been a very long day until he saw Kelly again; at first he had heard her giggling and he thought that he had been dreaming, why did she sound so happy? He’d jumped up off the ground trying to see through the bars towards where he could hear her giggles. The cage was placed outside near two large doors that were open all the time with many of them passing in-and-out through it but he’d never seen Kelly at all even when he had tried his hardest to peer in through the door down the long corridor he had never seen her.
But now he could hear her laughing and God she sounded so beautiful, he could imagine her face, he could see her beautiful smile in his mind. He gripped the bars watching the open doors carefully praying Kelly would appear through them.
Ethan was the first person he saw and anger bubbled in Sawyer’s stomach as he glared at Ethan before a thin pale hand reached out grabbing Ethan’s hand as he pulled the owner of the hand up out of the doors. Kelly stepped out wrapped in what looked like a white robe.
She looked so clean, she was basically glowing as she continued to grin happily almost tripping with Ethan catching her. Her hair was all clean all the dirt out of it with some of it curling naturally around her pretty face. Her lips were bright pink as she stepped out onto the grass in what appeared to be white fluffy slippers, which only worried Sawyer, why were they keeping her so clean and happy?
The son of a bitch that walked past Sawyer’s cage daily followed Ethan and Kelly out going over to the cage straight away while Ethan tried to calm Kelly down.
“You ask her any questions about what’s been happening to her or if she knows how to escape this’ll be the last time you ever see her.” The man ordered before stepping back and motioning for Ethan to bring Kelly forward.
“Kelly.” Ethan said in a soft voice like he was talking to a baby. “Do you wanna talk to Sawyer?”
Kelly perked up her giggling stopping as she looked around trying to find Sawyer. “Sawyer? Where?”
“He’s right over there.” Ethan pointed.
Kelly looked over and a grin erupted on her face before she moved over to Sawyer slowly looking up at him putting her hands up on the horizontal bars. “What’re you doing out here? It’s much warmer inside.”
His mouth dropped open as he looked at the way she was smiling even though she looked unsure and the way she was kind of swaying. He glared over at Ethan and the other man, they had drugged her she looked like she was a million miles away – this wasn’t his Kelly. When she poked him on the nose giggling lightly he looked back down at her smiling softly at her. “You okay Beautiful?”
She nodded continuing to smile as she ran her fingertips over his face like she was exploring it for the very first time. “Yep, Ethan’s taking good care of me.”
“Yeah?” He asked unable to contain a smile as she soon began fussing with his dirty shirt straightening out a crease putting all her concentration on it her brow furrowing a little. “You been keeping yourself busy?”
“Uh-huh.” She nodded before looking up at him putting her hand back on the bar. “I learnt how to knit and I’m making little booties for the baby.”
“That’s great.” He told her slowly reaching out to touch her hair that felt so smooth between his fingers.
She furrowed her brow again. “They just don’t look right, they look all weird and wrong-shaped.”
“I’m sure they’re perfect.” He whispered to her.
She smiled laughing softly before she put on her best serious face. “So come on you have to tell me, why aren’t you inside?”
“Well I got myself into trouble and I’m out here.” He told her.
She leant forward to whisper to him. “I could probably ask if you could come stay with me in my room, the bed is pretty big.”
“Shh.” He hushed her. “It’s okay, I like it outside, it’s good for my tan.”
She waved her hand at him. “Oh nonsense.” She turned around speaking loudly getting Ethan’s attention. “Hey Ethan, would we be able to fit Sawyer into my room for a while so he’s not out here in the cold?”
“I’ll see what I can do.” Ethan told her. “Now come on it’s almost time for your nap you say goodbye now, okay?”
She sighed looking back at Sawyer. “Okay.”
Sawyer put a hand out on her shoulder rubbing it tenderly as she reached into the cage brushing some of his hair out of his face. “You take care of yourself, okay Beautiful?”
“Okay.”
“And whenever you feel scared don’t you worry because I’ll be here, I’m not going anywhere without you, okay?”
She looked into his eyes smiling unsurely. “You’re acting like you’re really in trouble.”
He shook his head. “Don’t worry about it Beautiful, you just keep working on those booties.”
“Yeah but after my nap.” She told him rubbing her eye with the back of her hand before yawning widely and loudly. “I’m exhausted.”
He leant forward to kiss her soft forehead. “I love you.”
She smiled as he pulled back. “I know.” She poked him in the nose again causing him to smile before she began to walk back off turning around to wave to Sawyer as Ethan took her arm. “Bye, I’ll see what I can do with the room, ‘kay?”
“Okay.” He replied gloomily as Ethan helped her back in through the doors.
Seeing Kelly hadn’t calmed Sawyer at all and that night while they were all sleeping he planned to get to Kelly. They were drugging her with something that couldn’t be good for her or her baby and he needed to get to her. He was sure that there would be some way out of this cage; it was a bear cage after all so it wasn’t build for spry humans to find their way out of like Sawyer was sure he could.
He waited until the sun was long gone with all the stars lighting up the sky and it had been at least an hour until he had seen any of them moving around. He was sure they had all toddled off to bed by now so if he were to sneak into there and into Kelly’s room they’d never notice if he disappeared with her in the middle of the night.
The first task was to destroy the security cameras, which he had some very helpful rocks to assist him in making him disappear. Having very good aim Sawyer managed to get the first camera down after three rocks then he destroyed the second camera after one throw. Then after studying the cage all day he climbed up the bars with a little difficulty due to his sore arm but when he made it to the top he was surprised at how easily he could fit between the top two bars.
Feeling a little like James Bond for such a fantastic escape he sat on the roof for a little while catching his breath before he slipped down the side landing on the ground softly before he removed his shoes so his footsteps wouldn’t echo when he stepped into the corridor. He took in several more deep breaths before going down into the corridor where he was so surprised to see Kelly wandering into a room as she held a bag in her hand scratching her wet looking hair.
She was dressed in her red pants and her long singlet that she had been wearing when they had been taken but she still looked drugged. He looked around checking the coast was clear as she went into the room before he bolted over to her reaching the doorway as she turned to close the door.
Her face split into a smile and he hushed her by placing a finger to her lips before she was able to giggle, she grinned at him before grabbing him shoving him into the room then closing the door quickly. He just stood where she had shoved him looking around at the room with his mouth open, what was this place? It looked like a kid’s room the way it looked back in the real world.
It was painted a calming blue with a chest of draws, it had a smaller chest of draws beside a king sized bed with a small lamp on it, the bed was half-made which hinted to Sawyer that was where Kelly slept. There was a wooden cot with a mobile above it and there were those crappy cardboard cut-outs of palm trees on the walls. To top it all off there was a rocking chair that had the robe Kelly had been wearing earlier draped over the back, he really didn’t feel like they were on the island anymore.
“What is this place?” He asked.
Kelly went over to the rocking chair dumping the bag down onto it before she placed herself down onto the bed folding her legs in front of her. “This is gonna be the baby’s room.”
“Wow.” He replied unable to think of anything to say, he had to admit it was pretty incredible. He tore his eyes away from looking at how everything looked so perfect to look at her smiling face. “It’s beautiful.”
She giggled. “So did Ethan get you in here or were you naughty and did you sneak in?”
“You know me Beautiful, any way I can get to you…” He said flashing her his smile as he walked around the room slowly.
She got up grabbing his hand. “Well come on, you might get in trouble.”
“Hey no, its okay I just wanted to come see if you wanted to come for a walk.” He offered.
She giggled. “Really? A walk? But it’s the middle of the night.”
“Well why ain’t you asleep?” He replied.
She looked down shrugging innocently before she looked back up at him with her big blue eyes. “I couldn’t sleep.”
“Yeah?” He asked running a hand through her damp hair before resting his hand on her cheek. “So Ethan would understand if you went for a walk because you couldn’t sleep, right?”
She shrugged. “I dunno, I guess I could risk it.”
He grinned. “That’s more like it.”
As he began to cross the room with her following him she quickly stopped him.
“Hold on, I need to get my shoes and I should go out first so you don’t get in trouble.” She told him before smiling at him poking him on the nose.
“How ‘bout I get your shoes and you check the coast is clear, we’ll put your shoes on once we get inside, wouldn’t want to wake anybody up.” He offered.
“Yeah.” She nodded.
They managed to make it outside the corridor with Sawyer helping Kelly get her boots on before he slid his own shoes on, wrapped his arm around her shoulders then began to move off quickly towards what he could only assume was the way back home. He had no idea where they were but he knew that they needed to get away from those people.
He had to keep Kelly calm so he just began asking her random questions about what she knew about what happened to Charlie. Even though Sawyer would never ever admit to anyone that he cared what happened to the little runt he had been curious as to where Charlie was. Kelly obviously hadn’t seen him because she would have said something by now.
“Oh Ethan dropped him off back at the camp after they brought us here.” She replied as if it was nothing. “I don’t know why they kept you though didn’t make any sense to leave Charlie and bring you.”
He shrugged. “Yeah well who knows what’s going on in Ethan’s mind?”
After a while of silence with Sawyer just leading Kelly straight ahead away from this place she began looking around a little confused. He felt her hair swishing around on his arm and he glanced down at her to see her furrowed brow.
“Where are we going?” She asked.
He gripped her shoulder a little tighter. “Just for a little walk Beautiful, it’s okay.”
“Well we can’t go too far because then it’ll be like way too far to walk back and if Ethan sees that I’m gone he’ll go nuts.” Kelly said.
“It’s okay.” He repeated. “I’ve got you; you don’t need to worry about Ethan at all.”
She nodded and they continued on with her falling silent leaning her head against his chest as she sighed sleepily. He smiled as she began to lean against him a lot more her pace slowing down a bit more, he tried to keep her going in case they caught them but he couldn’t resist smiling at her.
“You gettin’ sleepy there?” He asked.
“Yeah a bit.” She replied before he heard a twig snap from behind them. “Look can we go back; my feet are starting to hurt.” She stopped walking all together pulling out of his embrace grabbing onto his hand and trying to pull him back.
His eyes widened as he saw a figure behind Kelly, he grabbed her arm pulling her against his body as he wrapped his arms around her protectively whispering to her. “Someone’s out there.”
She narrowed her eyes as she looked up at him slowly before whispering back. “Of course there’s someone out here Sawyer, it’s probably just Tom or someone getting back from one of their hunts.”
“Kelly…” Ethan began causing Sawyer to hold her tighter.
She tried to break out of his grip. “Come on Cowboy settle down, it’s just Ethan.”
“Shh.” He hissed.
“I can hear you out there Sawyer.” Ethan said before a flashlight went on in their faces.
“See I told you.” Kelly told Sawyer before shoving him off her then she began walking over to Ethan.
He shouldn’t have lured her out there, he knew that now and if he had’ve known that then he would’ve come up with a better plan than just grabbing her expecting her to go with him straight away. Ethan had one thing going on for him that Sawyer would never have, he was drugging Kelly up making her believe a bunch of lies and she just believed it was real life.
Somehow they’d convinced her that she was safe with them, they’d made her forget that they had taken her away from Charlie, they made her believe that it was Sawyer’s own choice to be inside that cage. They had taken her away from him and there was no way he could possibly get her out of there. The only way he could think of that would work was getting her while she was knocked out then just carrying her away whether she liked it or not.
After Kelly was safe back in the station they’d drugged Sawyer and he’d woken up on the beach not too far from his camp. Charlie was back there sitting on a sand dune staring out at the ocean feeling sorry for himself, he had obviously not even tried looking for Kelly. Sawyer knew, even before he had seen Charlie that Charlie hadn’t gone out to look for Kelly at all.
Sawyer had been there when Charlie had first come into Kelly’s life, he had seen them together a million times and he knew that he cared about her more than Charlie ever could. Chucky put in a good effort but in the end he’d never be able to protect her even if they had given him a chance to fight. Even if Kelly thought she could take care of herself she couldn’t, she needed someone who was strong enough for two of them and Charlie wasn’t it.
The boy was a ‘recovering’ drug addict if he was going to be distracted by his drugs then there was no way he’d be able to protect Kelly. Sawyer didn’t say a single word to the little pip-squeak, he walked past him every day before he went off to the jungle to look for Kelly again and Charlie never offered to come with him or showed any interest in what he was doing.
Sawyer knew Charlie wanted Kelly to give up the baby so why did he care that it was gone? Shouldn’t he be celebrating? Sawyer really just wanted to punch Charlie right in his ugly nose and mess him up real good that would make him feel a lot better. Charlie didn’t deserve to sit there not doing anything, it was his fault Kelly was in the caves and it was his fault she was moving back to the beach because he couldn’t take care of her, he should be the one moving heaven and hell to get to her.
Today instead of traipsing into the jungle in broad daylight when everyone could see him, when the Doc would probably follow him and try to stop him, Sawyer was going to wait until night time before he ventured out to look for Kelly again. He just sat in front of his tent in the sun with everyone passing his tent at some point of the tent except for Charlie who was still up on his sand dune not helping anyone out or anything, still pouting.
Sawyer was really getting sick of seeing Charlie’s face every single day with that stupid look on his face that made out that he was really depressed when inside he was probably doing little dances, he didn’t have to put up with the baby or Kelly anymore.
It made Sawyer sick and he wanted to get Kelly back himself just so he could rub it right in Charlie’s face that he had done it without anyone’s help, the way that he should’ve. The boy needed to take care of Kelly properly, he needed to take responsibility for her she was carrying his baby after all but of course the little pip-squeak didn’t care about that he was just selfish sitting there by himself trying to get everyone to feel sorry for him when Kelly was out there in that jungle alone by herself.

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Fri, 06 Apr 2007 07:35:15 GMT

Title//The Swing Set
Pairing//SK
Genre//Drama/Romance
Timeline//Before island, Kelly's still in school and Sawyer's still living in the flat
Prompt//SK sitting on swings together
Summary//When Kelly returns home from a party drunk and broken hearted it's up to Sawyer to mend her broken heart and make sure she doesn't pass out in the backyard

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Laughing, high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing, high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing floated into the room through the open window arousing Sawyer from his light slumber. Laughing, high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing had woken him up in one in the morning on a Wednesday night. He opened his eyes slowly the moon light giving his bedroom a nice natural glow as he sat up with his brow furrowed. He pulled himself out of bed as the high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing continued.
The first person that came to mind was that it was just another random drunk chick stumbling through the O’Donnell’s back yard, that had happened once before and this laughing sounded the same as last time. Except this time it was a little quieter, like the creator of the high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing was trying to control it.
Last time the drunken chick had just stumbled through the lawn singing a crappy pop song while laughing and waving her tequila bottle around. But whoever was creating the high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing wasn’t as loud. He suspected that it might be Kelly and she was trying to sneak in to the house but he quickly tossed the thought away. Kelly was young, sweet and innocent why would she be stumbling around in her own back yard laughing a high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laugh completely off her face drunk?
Kelly may have been in the stage of her life when she was angry and she was trying to defy her parents but Sawyer just didn’t think she was one of those girls who would get completely drunk just to make her parents angry. Sawyer had been one of those kids who got drunk all the time because he was completely angry with the world but Kelly just wasn’t one of those kids, she was too happy and she loved her life. The black hair didn’t fool him; he knew she was really happy inside.
The high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing continued as he reached the window and looked out to find a small body on the ground. The figures chest was rising and falling quickly as if it was struggling for breath as it produced the high-pitched, squeaky, gleeful laughing. He furrowed his brow as the figure hiccupped then groaned rolling over onto its side next to the pool.
The moon was full tonight making it very easy to see everything that was going on in the yard and even though the figure was in the dark Sawyer could tell who it was. The shirt she was wearing was the shirt she had been wearing tonight when she said she was just going to Jess’s to hang out. It was the white button-up sleeveless one that she wore her black skull tie with. He could see the chunky jewellery on her wrists and fingers. Her tight black jeans on her bottom half with the occasional rip in them and the chain belt she had were a give away who it was as well.
But the one thing that made him know straight away it was her was the shoes that she was wearing, only Kelly wore the same shoes day in-day out no matter what the occasion was. Her dark blue Converse gym boots that he didn’t think he’d ever seen her leave school without them on her feet.
He rolled his eyes as she began to gasp for air and he left the flat crossing the yard in just his jeans with his eyebrows raised at her. She lifted herself off the ground a bit drawing in a large breath and as he was about to say something she leant back over the pool vomit spilling from her mouth. He rushed over to her kneeling down on the ground next to her as he pulled her hair out of her face trying to capture all of it. She jumped out of her skin when he wrapped his arm around her middle to stop her from falling face first into the vomit coated water.
Once her coughing had finished she yelped but he hissed at her to be quiet and she relaxed again going back to her vomiting. He rolled his eyes at her holding her hair back and an arm around her middle remembering how many times he’d puked his guts out after drinking. She heaved a little then coughed sitting up a little. She laughed a little as she leant against his body looking up at him as he cleaned around her mouth with his hand.
“Did you know we have a swing set?” She asked pointing over to the two swings that stood in the yard.
He raised his eyebrows at her. “How many did you have?”
“I think we should sit on the swings.” She told him putting her hands on the ground and trying to push herself up. She groaned then just rolled out of his arms holding her hands out in the air obviously wanting him to help her up. “It’s a beautiful night; the moon is being all moon-ish.”
He stood up, put one foot on the side of her hips raising his eyebrows at her. “If we sit on the swings will you tell me how much you’ve had to drink?”
She snorted still waving her hands around trying to get him to take them. “Me? Drunk? Never, I’m insulted that you’d even think that of me.” He continued to stare at her with an unimproving look on his face as she tried to smile innocently but she hiccuped, which caused him to roll his eyes at her as she laughed loudly.
“Shh.” He hissed taking her hands and pulling her up, once she was standing her wrapped an arm around her middle pulling her body against his so she wouldn’t fall over. “Do you want your parents to find out?”
She scoffed waving a hand at the house. “They don’t care.” As he began to lead her over to the swings she looked a little angry until she hiccuped and started laughing again.
Once they reached the swings he had to help her onto the small seat, she smiled at him and opened her mouth to say something but she was cut off when she slipped back almost falling off the seat. Luckily he had predicted this happening and grabbed her wrists before she could fall. She laughed loudly as she positioned herself on the seat properly holding onto the chains. She smiled innocently at him waving her feet around as he sat down onto the swing beside hers.
Kelly was so innocent looking that it seemed Sawyer had completely forgotten she was a teenage girl who was exploring the thrills of drinking. He didn’t think that he’d ever pictured Kelly stumbling home completely drunk from a party, she really didn’t seem that type of girl. From the second he’d seen her he had known her type and it seemed that now she was trying to escape from being that type of girl.
He had to admit that stumbling home drunk from a party that her parents didn’t even know she was going to wasn’t something that most little princesses did – he was quite impressed. He knew that he shouldn’t be impressed by the fact that she had completely fooled her parents and gotten her hands on some beer but he was pretty darn impressed, she was only 15. He was a little worried about the fact that she might pass out or even worse make a pass at him that he might enjoy a little too much.
After getting somewhat comfortable on the plastic seat he looked over at her to see her sitting on her swing waving her feet around with a sad look on her face as she held onto the chains tightly. He furrowed his brow slightly at her pouting bottom lip.
“So what happened at Brittney’s?” He asked reaching out to put a hand on her knee not asking her what happened at her party or ‘the big party’ because he wasn’t a parent and he still knew how to speak to her so she wouldn’t roll her eyes at him calling him ‘lame’.
She shrugged taking in a deep shaky breath as he noticed the way that her dark make-up was smudged from where it had been drawn on. “I tried to impress this guy by making out with this chick but the guy just liked the other girl and he called me a freak and left.” She laughed dryly. “So that was when I found out how awesome beer is.”
He furrowed his brow stopping his swing from moving by putting his feet onto the ground. “Wait…you made out with a chick to impress some guy?”
She rolled her eyes. “Yes Sawyer.” She smirked cocking an eyebrow as she looked at him. “I bet you’re wishing you were the now, don’t you?”
He shrugged a shoulder trying to contain his smile. “Well maybe.”
She laughed shaking her head as another hiccup escaped her lips, she groaned and rested her head against her hand as she continued to hiccup. “I feel like shit.”
“So the guy you were trying to impress…” He began. “…how far did you want to go with him?”
“The whole way.” She confessed and he sat forward to get a better look at her as she nodded obviously ashamed of herself. “I know that it sounds stupid but I really thought he liked me and he just made me feel so special.” She linked one of her legs around one of his. “But it was all a lie.”
He looked away from her looking down at the way her leg was wrapped around his and the way that she was rubbing his leg with her foot. She wanted him again, it was a usual thing for Kelly to want Sawyer these days and he was getting pretty used to it by now but tonight he didn’t like it. She was sad because this boy had made her feel special, taken advantage of her then left her out in the cold, Sawyer knew that one day he would have to do that to her too.
By far the hardest thing about this con was Kelly and the way she looked at him, if she wasn’t so young, so innocent then he would find it so much easier to just seduce her, get the money then leave. But she was so young, so cute, so innocent and he cared about her. He wanted to hurt his guy because he had hurt Kelly, the special princess and she never deserved to be hurt. One day he was going to have to hurt her but tonight he just wanted to take care of her.
Having a young, gorgeous, horny, intoxicated teenage girl wrapping her leg around his and caressing his leg with her foot was a really hard offer to knock back. Intoxicated women were the easiest to take and Kelly was wounded, oh-so wounded, needing someone to repair her, he didn’t have to guess what was going on in that mind of hers. She could probably guess that he was thinking about it too, Sawyer had been thinking about it since the moment he’d seen her, he loved girls of her type because teenage girls were dangerous to fall in love with, so needy and so adorable that they made you want to spend every minute pleasuring in them just to watch the expressions they made when you did something new.
Kelly was always hard to resist, with her big blue eyes, sexy black hair and the cheeky smile she got when she was being seductive but the fact that she was drunk made Sawyer want to take her even more. He knew that he could take her and very easily too. Kelly was horny, as she was a great deal of the time, that was how teenagers were, but tonight she wasn’t just horny, she was intoxicated. It would all too easy for him to grab her and kiss her without her wanting to play around or tease him she would just want to get it over with, but that seemed a little too easy.
Not only was it too easy it wouldn’t be worth it, the con was still running and if he were to bang Kelly know she would probably want a relationship with him. He understood Kelly by now so he understood that she probably wouldn’t want an actual relationship like going to the movies together or fancy restaurants but she would probably want a relationship based on sex, which was basically just her sneaking out of her room of a night time to go into his flat and nail him so it would be a risky move.
Taking Kelly tonight in her vulnerability wouldn’t be worth it, he had to wait and take care of her tonight, he’d go out tomorrow night to find someone less important to get rid of all the sexual needs he had. It made him smile a little the way that he was keeping Kelly for a special occasion like the way young kids kept the best chocolate until last so they could savour the taste for as long as they wanted.
But he couldn’t smile tonight he just looked at the way Kelly was rubbing her foot against his leg and it just made him sigh because he knew he couldn’t have her when it was what they both wanted more than anything in the world. She was staring at him, smiling at him, looking over his naked chest and licking her lips as her foot continued to rub his leg, he knew exactly what she wanted but he couldn’t give it to her as much as he wanted to.
All he could do was comfort her and in the end it would all pay off, she’d wake up tomorrow with a really bad hang over then when it was gone they’d return to their shameless flirting with each other.
“Do you feel okay?” He asked.
She shrugged. “I guess so, I mean my heart got smashed in two but I reckon I’ll heal.” She hiccuped and smiled at him as he looked up at her. “High school boys are such a waste of time; they have no idea what they want, I really don’t know why I bother…” She ran her foot a little further up his leg then ran it back down tucking it into the bottom of his jeans. “…older men are so much sexier.” She hiccuped breaking the serious mood as she giggled.
“How many did you have?” He asked.
She sighed tilting her head back as she released his leg from hers and pushed back to get her swing moving, once she was moving through the air she replied. “Over eight that is for sure, I had about five of those vodka shots too…vodka is really nice.” She grinned as she continued. “Fun to say too.”
He smiled at her. “You are going to be so hung over tomorrow.”
“Well I feel brilliant now.” She stated before she stopped her swing and looked deeply into his eyes. “You know what’s a funny word: enchanted. There are, like, so many ways to say it.”
He rolled his eyes and stood up as she began to say ‘enchanted’ in as many ways as she could think of. “I think it’s time for you to go to bed before you hurt yourself.”
She giggled a little. “Where am I gonna sleep? It’s not as if I can sleep in my own bed my parents will find me hung over in the morning and they’ll kill me.”
Sawyer lowered himself back to his swing. “Yeah…”
“Well you know what is, like, a really good idea?” She asked picking up one of his hands in hers causing him to look at her in confusion.
“Kelly…” He said. “…you’re holding my hand.”
She grinned. “Oh I know, I just wanted to know how it felt in mine, ‘coz y’know you’re always touching me with your hands and you’ve always got your arms around me but I don’t think I’ve ever held your hand…it’s big and strong like the rest of your body.” She paused and smirked. “That could come out pretty darn dirty.”
He rolled his eyes but slowly held onto her hand the way she was holding onto his, he heard her sniffle loudly and he looked over at her slowly to see a lone tear run down her face. “Oh what is it?” She let go of his hand with hers and used the back of her hand to wipe her tears. “Princess, what’s wrong?”
Her bottom lip was pouted out as she drew in a deep breath trying to control her crying as a hiccup escaped her lips making no effect on either of them. “I’m so stupid.”
He sunk down on his knees on the ground in front of her swing and looked up at her collecting both her hands in one of his while the other reached up to cradle her face. “No Kelly, no you’re not.”
“Yeah I am.” She said a little angrily. “I tried to impress this guy so I tried to be something that I’m not, I made out with a girl and it was really gross and I knew that I didn’t want to do it but I did and I drank so much and I’m gonna be so sick in the morning and it’s all for nothing.”
“Shh.” He ordered softly putting a finger to her lips. “What’s this guy’s name?”
“Andrew.” She muttered.
He scoffed and removed his finger from her lips and used that hand to play with the bottom of her tie causing her to look down at it as he looked at her seriously. “Well he sounds like a wanker…”
“Sawyer…” She began looking at him as if to ask him to stop but he continued.
“No I’m serious Princess, you’re too good for him and if he’s gonna make you do stuff that you don’t want to do then I don’t want you to hang out with him. You thinking that you have to do stuff for guys to get them to like you is wrong.” He explained as they looked deeply into each others eyes. “You are a beautiful, amazing person and if this Andrew wanker can’t see you for what you are then he isn’t worth it, if he wants to use you for his entertainment then you shouldn’t be around him. You’re too good for that.”
He knew that if Kelly really knew why Sawyer was living in the flat out the back of her house and why he had originally wanted to take her then she would probably think he was a hypocrite. He knew that he sounded like the biggest hypocrite in the world by telling Kelly that she shouldn’t be around guys who would just use her for their own gain then leave her out in the cold when that was exactly what he’d have to do one day.
Just because he had to do it didn’t mean that he wanted to do it and as he looked up at her with her bottom lip pouted out with make-up running down her face he felt his heart break for her. He wanted to hurt this Andrew kid really bad, he wanted to make Kelly feel better like it wasn’t her fault and that she was better than Andrew, Sawyer couldn’t really think of a better way to prove this by beating Andrew up but he’d probably get in trouble for that so he just held Kelly’s hands in one hand with the other hand touching her soft face staring up at her.
She was so beautiful, she didn’t deserve any of this and in that moment he knew that he didn’t want to be a con man anymore. He just wanted to take Kelly in his arms, kiss her soft lips and make sure that she never felt pain again but he knew it could never be. He had to get money from somewhere so he would always be conning and Kelly was just one of those girls he’d have to forget about.
But tonight he didn’t have to forget about her, he didn’t have to con her, he could just take her in his arms, hold her, run his hands through her black hair and make sure she falls asleep somewhere safe, somewhere with him.
She took in a deep shaky breath and leant against his hand closing her eyes for a while. “Just don’t leave me tonight.”
“Shh.” He whispered running his thumb over her bottom lip. “I’m not gonna leave you, not tonight, not ever.”
Her mouth curled into a smile as she leant closer to him taking the hand of his that was on her face in one of hers and resting her forehead against his. He knew what she wanted him to do straight away so he waited until her eyelids fluttered shut then he pressed his lips against hers. She let go of his hands and put her arms over his shoulders leaning closer to him as he put his unoccupied hands on her back drawing her closer as her mouth open.
He slid his tongue into her mouth causing her to moan happily then lean forward a little slipping off the swing onto her knees on the ground in front of him. She stood up high on her knees making her lips hard to reach as he withdrew his tongue from her mouth and slowly moved his lips down to her chin, then her jaw, then her neck to reach the curve where her shirt restricted any further entry.
She groaned putting her hand under his chin obviously wanting him to return to her mouth, he left a trail of kisses back up her neck all the way to her lips where they re-locked. She hiccuped sending the taste of vodka and vomit into his mouth, he would have kept kissing her but she pulled back from him breathing heavily as she rested her forehead against his chin while he tightened his arms around her pulling her off her knees into his lap.
“I think we should…” She drew in a deep shaky breath. “…we should stop.”
He nodded softly careful not to knock her head away as he combed his hand through her slightly tangled straight hair. “Okay Princess.” He picked her up in his arms and sat her carefully back down on her swing kneeling down in front of it again. “Do you feel any better?” He folded his arms over her legs as he looked up at her and she groaned.
“No, I think I need to puke again.” She complained.
He smiled up at her patting her arm. “It’ll pass I promise.”
She smiled back at him running a hand through his short hair. “Whenever I get drunk I want you there to take care of me.”

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Sun, 12 Nov 2006 05:02:07 GMT

Title//Revealed
Pairing//Becka/Josh
Genre//Romance/Humour
Timeline//When Becka and Josh were first getting serious with each other
Prompt//Awkward + naked + accident
Summary//Becka thinks she's alone enjoying a nice long shower and she's totally forgotten about the fact that she's given Josh a key to her place

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The water fell into every crease of her naked body as she sighed happily with the hot water causing steam around her. She un-did her long black from its bind & it fell down her back; she tilted her head forward causing the water to seep in through all her long black hair turning the light blue streaks dark blending in with her dark hair. The water ran through the tips of her hair down her back then past her back, falling over her rear then creeping down her smooth legs until it landed on the ground with the rest of her water.
She tilted her head backwards letting the water down her front; she opened her mouth swallowing some of the water before spitting it out & pulling the shampoo out of the shower rack.
After a very long day at work Becka was enjoying her shower incredibly, work had been very annoying today; Rodger didn’t give a crap about her & had made her be waitress all night even if her job was actually to man the bar but Rodger didn’t give a crap, as long as everyone was working. She had called Josh on her way home & told him he could come over if he wanted to put up with her being grumpy but he said that he didn’t care how grumpy he was he just wanted to see her.
She didn’t care about anything as she washed her hair, she had her radio playing in the kitchen & she was humming along happily to her favourite Blink-182 song. With her music playing & she body soaked with relaxing hot water Becka didn’t need anything else.
The light shone out of the room into the main room hall where everything is was led off, it was Becka’s house & she only lived with Meagan who was out tonight so she didn’t need to close the door even if Meagan could arrive home at any time it wasn’t as if those two hadn’t seen each other naked before.
Becka doubted highly that Meagan would be home early because she’d gone out clubbing with her new boyfriend…what was his name? Bert something. The point was he wasn’t Meagan’s type at all but they seemed into each other, Becka didn’t really care; it kept Meagan out of the house so she & Josh could have the house to themselves.
She completely forgot about the fact that she had given Josh a key as she showered singing I Miss You at the top of her lungs but Josh hadn’t forgot about the key at all because he was using it to unlock the front door.
Becka continued to sing not hearing the door open or close at all she just flipped her hair over her shoulder before tilting her head backwards to swallow more water.
“Becka?” Josh called out looking around the empty house. “Meagan?” He looked around trying to remember Meagan’s new boyfriend’s name. “Uh…anyone?”
“Don’t waste your time on me you’re already the voice inside my head.” Becka sang.
He smiled & began going toward her voice not hearing the shower because it was down so low while Becka was so loud. He saw the light on in the bathroom & figured she was cleaning or something because that was what she did of a night time.
“Becka?” He asked stepping into the bathroom.
She threw her hair back turning the shower off & but not turning the radio off as she stepped out. She looked in the mirror & saw Josh standing a few meters behind her able to see every inch of her body because of the mirror. She gaped & as she jumped back she slid on some water.
As she was about to go flying into the floor he stepped forward & caught her when she was only inches from the ground. She looked up at him slowly as she noticed him looking up trying his hardest not to stare at her naked body.
“Uh thanks.” She said getting up herself & grabbing a towel.
“Yeah you’re welcome.” He shrugged looking away awkwardly.
She wrapped the towel around herself & laughed slightly. “You can look now.”
He looked at her & sighed happily. “Wow that was awkward.”
“Yeah.” She agreed scratching the back of her neck nervously.
“Well hi.” He said taking her shoulders, pulling her closer & pressing a kiss on her lips.
“Hey.” She said resting her head against his before kissing him again. “Do you want anything to eat or drink?”
He stepped back from her. “Nah, it’s all good.”
She shifted uncomfortably. “Um, this is awkward.”
“Yeah sorry.” He said before pausing. “I just saw you naked?”
“Yeah.” She replied.
He nodded looking at her. “Wasn’t bad.”
She laughed & shoved his shoulder accidentally dropping the towel again. “Oh shit.” She bent over & quickly gathered the towel up around her body again.
This time he didn’t look away he just watched looking over her body without any shame & smiled when their eyes met with her looking around awkwardly.
“Wait, you were just enjoying yourself weren’t you?” She asked.
He shrugged innocently. “Is it such a crime to like looking at my gorgeous girlfriend naked?”
She smiled. “Wasn’t bad?”
He leant forward. “You’re beautiful.” He pressed his lips against hers softly.
She leant closer to him deepening the kiss “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.”

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Wed, 08 Nov 2006 07:11:39 GMT

Title//Stormy Nights
Pairing//Stephanie/Billy
Genre//Humour
Timeline//Season 1 early before Dare comes into it
Prompt//'I'm waiting until daytime when everything is less creepy' spoken by Babs
Summary//Stephanie battles demons and risks her life all the time but there's one thing that never fails to scare her

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Lightning struck into the ground & Stephanie whimpered as the lights flickered again. Damn to this large old house that was perfect for being struck by lightning & was always trapped in the middle of storms. It made no sense to Stephanie at all why she had let Billy move her in here in the first place, she hated storms, utterly loathed them & every time there was a storm something around her ended up getting damaged even if it was just a stupid bird.
She hated storms & Billy knew that but he was just sitting on the window sill, with the window wide open, watching the clouds get closer. He was just sitting there! Did he not know how dangerous it was? Did he not know that he could be struck by lightning & he wasn’t wearing any rubber to protect himself? He obviously didn’t know because he was just sitting there soaking up the rain with a dimpled smile on his face as he sighed happily.
It wasn’t that Stephanie wanted to be scared of storms but they were scary things. Flashes of lights, loud eruptions of sound & it wasn’t the good flashes like from a camera, these could kill you.
Thunder rumbled over head & Stephanie squeaked in fear when the lights completely turned off. She rushed over to Billy her hair flying off her shoulders as her eyes, wide with fear, set on him.
“Billy…” She begged. “…please close the window.”
He sighed & looked back over his shoulder at her. “It’s just a little lightning baby, lightning never hurt anyone.”
She glared at him & growled slightly before storming off toward the basement door. “Yeah well I’m sure you’d like to prove that theory right.”
Even if Stephanie hated the basement almost as much as she hated storms she had to go down there, it was the safest place to be in the whole house & it had the candles. With the house in darkness Stephanie’s hearing became extremely good & she could hear everything causing her to become quite paranoid. She strained her eyes silently cursing at them to work but all she could see was outlines of things in her house.
As more lightning flashed she looked to her side jumping back in fear when she saw herself in the mirror. She growled at her own stupidity then continued looking for the basement door which seemed to be missing at the current moment.
It was probably just the storm making her paranoid but she swore that she could feel the presence of something else near her. She looked around slowly reaching out for something; anything would do just as long as it wasn’t something alive, like a demon.
Her hand found one of the many small tables & she felt around over the top lucky enough to get her hand on one of Billy’s small torches. She quickly switched it on & found herself looking at another mirror.
“When did that get there?” She asked quietly.
“You say somethin’?” Billy yelled.
She rolled her eyes ignoring the mirror as she looked around pointing the torch in all directions. “No Billy, just keep staring at the rain.”
Thunder grumbled overhead as Stephanie finished looking around herself in a full of 360 turn & found nothing as she kept the torch light completely parrel to the ground. She didn’t think that anything could possibly be on the floor that she wouldn’t hear so she looked upwards checking the roof but there was nothing there.
It was just the storm making her paranoid she decided as she found the basement door & began walking over to it at a quicker pace. As she stopped at the door she heard something from behind her.
Something that sounded remotely like a cat meowing from behind her. But that couldn’t be because they didn’t have a cat & there was no way it could have gotten in.
“Billy, tell me that was you.” She called not turning to look or making any effort to move her torch to inspect.
“Huh?” He yelled.
Her heart leapt into her throat & she felt as if she couldn’t breathe as she slowly turned around directing the torch light to the ground. She screamed jumping back when she saw a cat sitting on the ground behind her looking up at her innocently.
“Meow?” It offered her.
She stomped her foot at her own stupidity & the cat scampered off as Stephanie cursed quietly at herself.
It was the storm making her paranoid, cats got into the house all the time & Stephanie was used to them by now. If this stupid storm wasn’t going on she wouldn’t have gotten so freaked out & would have just fed the cat. It was the stupid storm that ruined everything, not Stephanie’s nerves.
“What was it?” Billy asked appearing in front of her.
She threw the torch at him. “I hate storms.”
“Steph, there is nothing wrong with storms, it’s just you getting yourself all worked up over it.” Billy said shining the torch in her face.
She screwed her eyes & face up pouting like a little kid as she stamped her foot again. “It is not, it’s the stupid storm making me scared.”
He shook his head with a half-laugh. “You’re being a baby.”
“Whatever, I’m going to go light some candles so everything is less creepy.”

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Mon, 06 Nov 2006 06:46:55 GMT

Title//The Only Difference
Pairing//Becka/Josh
Genre//Fluff
Timeline//When Josh proposes to Becka
Prompt//Trying to explain the difference between making love and having sex
Summary//When do you cross the barrier from having pointless sex to making real deal love?

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Making love or sex as other people preferred to call it – it was the international fashion that everyone was doing & it had always been done. Because sex was addictive & lots of fun. But making love that was the special code used for it when the people preforming the popular act were in deep love with each other. There was a lot of difference between making love & having sex. When you were making love with someone everything is delicate & tender but when you’re having sex everything is for the purpose of fun & pleasure so there’s no need to be tender or delicate. When you’re having sex it’s just about making the other person scream out your name as they forget their own name.
Becka & Josh were in a kind of limbo between the two stages. They were in love with each other but the purpose was kind of for fun but mostly for pleasure & expressing feelings of sexual need.
At the exact moment they were preforming their little making love art with their bodies as one with him moving around inside of her causing pleasure to go racing through both their bodies. His fingers were caught up in her long black hair as he held his hand at the back of her head to gain access into her mouth.
Their lips were mushing together perfectly as they kissed each other passionately pashing like there was no tomorrow. His other hand was on the bed holding him up above her causing her to lift up that side of her body to keep them connected by the lips. Her hands were gripping his upper arms to pull him closer & have something to grip onto. Their bodies were melded together perfectly with everything being completely comfortable. When he moved he’d find a bit of her body to relax into & they would fit into each other again. Her legs were tangled around his with her hips pressed against his as he grinded his hips against hers.
When he pulled back she took in a deep breath of air then tilted her head backwards trying to find her pillow as she took in long deep breaths. He kissed her neck softly & she smiled taking her hands off his arms then slinging her arms around his neck very delicately tracing circles into the back of his neck.
“I love you.” He breathed onto her neck.
She shivered slightly then let her body slump back onto the bed. “I love you too.”
He stilled himself in her & kissed her jaw as she rested her head on the pillow looking up at him. “Marry me.” He whispered.
She froze her eyes widening. “What did you just say?”
He looked at her staring deeply into her eyes. “Marry me.”
“Are…are you serious?” She asked looking at him with fear in her eyes.
He smiled & pressed a kiss on her lips. “I love you so much, so marry me.”
Slowly a weak & unsure smile appeared on her face. “You’re serious?”
He rolled his eyes. “No I say this to everyone.”
Her mouth dropped open & she full out grinned wrapping her arms around him pulling him into an extremely tight hug as she laughed happily. He slipped out of her as he managed to not go completely flying into the wall before she wrapped her legs around him as well.
“Is that a ‘yes’?” He asked looking at her unsurely.
“Huh?” She grunted pulling back to look at him.
He stared deeply into her eyes. “Will you marry me?”
She grinned laughing slightly. “Yes.”
He smiled back at her then pressed a long passionate kiss onto her lips before sitting up pulling her up with him. He sat her on his legs & looked up at her as she draped her arms over his shoulders smiling softly at him.
“You’re gonna be my wife.” He said.
She grinned & nodded proudly. “& you’re gonna be my husband.”
They slowly began kissing each other softly & tenderly. Then they slipped out of the limbo & fell into making love with each other. Everything was soft, tender & delicate, nothing was hard with no reason to scream or forget their names.
They were in love with each other & in that night they expressed it better than anyone else on the planet could, they made soft, tender & delicate love that they could only supply to each other. Towards the end Becka kept pulling back to laugh happily stating that they were going to be married & Josh would just smile at her telling her he couldn’t wait.
Making love is a sacred act & not a lot of people know when it’s happening to them or not but when your gorgeous boyfriend has just proposed to you, you better believe it’s happening to you. Making love is all about expressing how you feel to the person you love the most. It’s about giving yourself to the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.
Sex is for fun & once your married you can get away with it but when you’re in a passionate mood making love just works.

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Sun, 05 Nov 2006 04:56:33 GMT

Title//Touch
Pairing//SK
Genre//Romance
Timeline//During The Long Con
Prompt//'that got me all excited in the pants' spoken by Babs
Summary//When Kelly feels her heart racing when she finds herself looking over at Sawyer she know that it's because he can give her something no one else can

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It had been a very long time since Kelly had felt her heart racing because she was looking at someone or felt her breath caught in her throat as she tried to speak to them.
But yet here it was, she was completely covered in rain & so was Sawyer. She was just looking at him with Sun in his big strong arms & a small smile edged onto Kelly’s face. Something always got her when he was wet, he just looked so cute. His hair stuck to his face & as he smiled back at her she felt herself melt slightly.
She could see his chiselled body beneath his shirt which was now practically see-through due to the fact that he was soaked just like her. She wouldn’t care if all her clothes were see-through as long as he smiled at her.
After Jack had been talking to them they went back to their tent with Kelly putting Aaron into his cot. She turned around pulling her top singlet off as Sawyer shook his head sending the water droplets in his hair flying as he began undoing his wet shirt.
Kelly threw her white see-through singlet aside & shivered in her purple soaking wet singlet. “It is so cold.”
She watched carefully as he discarded his shirt & her heart race picked up a bit as she tried not to stare over his body. A rain drop from his hair fell onto his shoulder & she followed it with her eyes. She watched as it moved slipped into every creased on his chest but she blinked looking away when he wiped the droplet away.
“Can you help me with something?” He asked. “I promise it won’t take long.”
She smiled softly at him watching as he pulled a dry shirt on. “Okay.”
As he was throwing an extra tarp over the top of their tent Kelly watched him from inside as she put up another pole to hold the extra weight. She leant against the pole staring at him as he adjusted the tarp over the tent. She couldn’t contain a smile as she looked at him.
When he bent over to get some rope a grin appeared on her face but then she blushed looking away in case anyone had noticed her checking him out.
“Nice work.” She said smiling at him as he came back into the tent.
He smiled at her & she grinned back watching his dimples appear in his cheeks. “Thanks.”
A few minutes later she was drying herself off with one of the ripped blankets in their collection as he turned his back on her & she heard his pants un-do. She froze her eyes completely widening as she realized he was changing pants.
She didn’t even move she just stood there watching him. She watched every movement his body made & she didn’t dare to look aware even when his pants were completely dropped leaving him revealed. Her whole body felt like it was going to fall into a puddle of pleasure as it seemed to call out to him.
She could feel her body throbbing with need, the need for him. She felt like she needed to feel him, any part of him, she just needed to feel his naked skin against her naked skin. She needed to feel him or she was going to explode with sexual frustration.
She didn’t know what was going on with her but she needed him to touch her, in any place just so she could feel him. Watching him undress in front of her made her all excited in her pants & she could feel herself wanting him more as the seconds past.
Once he had on a dry pair of pants she felt control over her body again but the urge of needing him to touch her was still there & she didn’t know if it would ever go away. He turned around flicking his hair out of his face as he did up the zipper on his pants.
She slowly took a step toward him dropping the towel on the ground beside her as she continued walking slowly toward him. He didn’t move, he just stared into her eyes & he seemed to know what she was thinking as well.
As she stood right in front of him she exhaled her stomach lightly brushing against his as she stared deeply into his eyes. Her heart raced pulsing into over drive she thought that if it beat any harder she’d collapse. He slowly raised his hand & twirled some of her hair around his finger before tucking it behind her ear.
Her eyes fluttered shut as she felt his finger brush over the top of her ear & her mind was screaming out for more as she stepped closer to him. Their legs were pressed together & her chest was against his. He put his hand onto the side of her face & she kept her eyes closed rubbing her face against his hand feeling his touch.
He moved closer to her & very slowly pressed his lips against hers. She moved closer to him deepening the kiss taking his hand & putting it to the curve of her back. He got the same idea as her & pulled her top up a bit then replaced his hand on the curve of her back which was now revealed.
She moaned happily against his lips – that was the touch she needed.

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Sat, 28 Oct 2006 09:06:37 GMT

Title//Choices
Pairing//SK
Genre//Angst/Romance
Timeline//Old ALS timeline, a year after Kelly and Sawyer broke up
Prompt//Kelly being hung-up on Sawyer and thinking about him constantly
Summary//Kelly is trying to move on with her new life with Charlie but she's being held back by things in her past that refuse to let go

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It started slowly & at first it was so small Kelly could ignore it but as the days past it got larger & much harder to ignore. She’d be lying in bed with Charlie at night but she wasn’t thinking about Charlie, she’d be kissing Charlie but she wasn’t thinking about Charlie & she’d be telling Charlie she loved him but she wasn’t thinking about Charlie.
At first she thought she was delusional & that she was suffering from some sign of stress but the feeling just didn’t disappear. She took sleeping pills to stop dreaming about it at night but she couldn’t take pills for day-dreams.
It was like a ghost that was following her & you couldn’t close a door on a ghost, they could withstand anything. She didn’t know who to talk to or who she could turn to. She couldn’t tell Charlie what was going on because she was betraying him by having day-dreams about someone else while she was kissing him & she didn’t want to break his heart when she wanted to be with him but she didn’t know how she felt. She wanted to be with Charlie but if she truly did, with all her heart, then why was she thinking about this other man when she told Charlie she loved him?
Could it be she was not yet over this man? But she had left him a year ago & she had sworn that she would never go back to him no matter how many little promises they used to make to each other while they were making love.
When she lay awake at night thinking about him & that night when he had gone too far she had decided with herself that it wasn’t entirely his fault, so she shouldn’t stay angry at him for the rest of her life because it would be the death of her. That night she hadn’t told him it was hurting or that she wanted him to stop she had just lain there expecting him to know how she felt but they were in a pitch black room & she wasn’t saying anything how could he know how she was feeling. He couldn’t see her or hear her.
Maybe when she decided to forgive him something inside her had been kicked back up for him & something inside her mind was telling her that she should talk to him but she knew if she spoke to him it wouldn’t get her anywhere except his pants, she didn’t want that.
Maybe she did.
Kelly couldn’t deny that those four years with him had been the best four years of her life & he had made her feel more beautiful than anyone else ever could. He had made her feel worth it & before him she had wanted to kill herself.
But she loved Charlie.
She didn’t know where her heart truly laid because she loved Charlie but she still thought about the man all the time & she wondered about him. The morning after that fateful night he had come to see her & for the first time in her life she had seen him cry. He was down on his knees begging her to go home with him but she had turned her back on him saying that he had raped her.
How was it rape when she had wanted it at first & hadn’t told him to stop? He didn’t know he was doing anything wrong, she thought that it was only technically rape if she had told him to back off, but she hadn’t & it wasn’t his fault that she had suffered.
She was trapped in a silent war against herself as she made the bed with Charlie. She was thinking about how much she loved Charlie & why he was the best person for her. Then the other side was saying that the other man could give her everything she wanted & he wasn’t an ex-drug addict like Charlie was.
Charlie was all happy & didn’t seem to have a care in the world as he pulled the purple sheets over the blue mattress. He was smiling & it made Kelly feel guilty for not thinking about him as she forced a smile back. He was so oblivious to all Kelly’s feelings & she didn’t know if he just plain didn’t care or couldn’t see it.
Whatever it was he couldn’t tell that all her smiles were fake & she wasn’t happy the way she used to be before she started thinking about the other man. Her mind had been infected with thoughts of him & she couldn’t stop thinking about him.
Some nights the dreams were so vivid she felt like they were real & it was happening all over again. Some night she could feel him inside of her & she could feel his breath on his face as he whispered that he loved her. Some nights she could feel his hands dancing across her skin & she could hear his voice in her ears as he told her she was the most beautiful girl in the world.
Then he called her that name.
He’d never called her Kelly, only in their first few months of being together & when he was begging her to come home. He just always called her ‘Beautiful’ & he said because that’s who she really was, she deserved a name as beautiful as her, then he quickly defended that there was nothing wrong with the name Kelly.
When Charlie wasn’t beside her in bed because he was out she could feel the other man lying down beside her, putting his arms around her, kissing her neck, nuzzling into her neck then telling her it was going to be okay because he was there & then he’d say that he loved her with her falling asleep in this memory.
She could always feel him & he didn’t seem like he was ever going to go away.
The door bell chimed & Kelly was brought back to planet earth looking at Charlie to answer the door but he looked back at her expecting her to go.
“Aren’t you going to get that?” He asked.
She sighed & threw the pillow at him. “Sure.”
She stumbled down the stairs, past the lounge room to the closed door. These stairs were where she’d told the man to leave & that she didn’t love him. Every time she walked down the stairs she could hear his voice in her head begging her to take him back & then she heard him say her name causing tears to build in her eyes as the memory of him choked on his own tears.
Kelly avoided going down the stairs & had made up some lie to Charlie about liking it better upstairs but she just didn’t like hearing the man in her mind, it was too real.
She opened the door & her entire body just stopped as her eyes fell onto the visitor. Her breath caught, her heart sped up, her body stiffened & then her legs turned to jelly. He smiled unsurely at her & she clang to the door trying to keep herself upright as she looked at him her eyes wide.
She didn’t know what to do, she just looked at him probably looking like a complete fool as she did so & tried to say something but nothing came she just stood there, her eyes wide with her mouth open slightly. He didn’t say anything either he just stood there waiting for her to do something, he was always waiting for her to do something, never rushing her & he seemed to be happy to just be in her presence, like always.
She finally managed to choke something out. “H-hi.”
His smile widened. “Hey Beautiful.”
“Hi.” She repeated breathlessly as a small smile crept onto her face.
He furrowed his brow in concern. “Are you okay?”
“Huh?” She said before shaking her head trying to regain control of her body. “Oh, yeah, I’m fine.”
He looked her up-&-down & she suddenly felt conscious of how much of her stomach was revealed in her top, then the length of her short shorts. “You could say that again.”
She coughed out a laugh leaning against the door. “That’s nice.”
Here he was, standing right in front of her & all she could do was laugh then smile dumbly. She couldn’t speak, what was going on? She had been thinking about him for so long but she never thought he’d turn up here to talk to her. He didn’t seem nervous at all & yet here she was barely choking out a sentence.
She just stared into his deep blue eyes not even wondering if Charlie could hear them or not, she was completely lost in this man’s eyes. She was under a spell & all she could manage was staring into his eyes with a smile on her face as she tried to catch her breath. She didn’t remember ever being this nervous around him or loosing her breath except maybe the first couple of weeks they were together but that was five years ago she was much more mature now.
But no matter how mature she got it wouldn’t change the fact he was gorgeous when he showed her that dimpled smile & that he had given her the most amazing four years of her life.
“What’s going on?” She asked taking long deep breath.
“I was just in the neighbourhood &-okay, I’m not going to lie to you, I’ve got a deal for you & Chuckle-head.” He replied. “You guys are still on right?”
She looked down at her feet. “Yeah.”
She didn’t want to admit that she was still with Charlie; it was like she was cheating on Charlie with her memories of this man anyway so their relationship wasn’t exactly at its best. But they weren’t fighting & he wasn’t really pushing her into anything so it wasn’t at its worst either.
Kelly was confused about all her feelings for Charlie & her feelings for this man in front of her were just as confusing.
She was over him, or was she? She was never sure if she was over him or not these days because she had forgiven him when she’d sworn she never would so maybe all those things she’d sworn to do didn’t apply anymore, maybe she wasn’t over him. Maybe she still wanted to be with him & maybe she was just pretending to love Charlie but now she had convinced herself as well as him.
If she did truly love this man in front of her she didn’t know it for sure & she didn’t know how she was going to react when she did find out where her heart truly laid.
It was awkward standing in front of him when she had thought about him for months & remembered how it felt when he was making love to her. One look at him & she couldn’t disguise that she still had feelings for him, that she didn’t feel the magic between them because she did.
“So, care to invite me in?” He asked.
“Oh right, sorry.” She replied stepping aside so he could get in.
He stepped right in front of her & looking deep into her eyes as they stood with their bodies only inches apart. She slowly let out a breath she had been holding in as he moved into the house away from her. She closed her eyes trying to control herself as she closed the door then turned to him going up the stairs.
She didn’t know what to do. Did she stop him? Did she follow him & act like nothing was going on? Did she act like she hadn’t been dreaming of nothing but him for months & lie to herself? She followed not sure what else she could do then when he reached the top of the stairs leading into the main room she heard Charlie gasp. She quickly followed the man up the stairs & stood behind him glancing over his shoulder at Charlie.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Charlie asked angrily.
“Relax Chuckles, she let me in.” The man replied.
Kelly couldn’t have said no to him, he was standing at her all spiffed up asking her if he could come in & she still thought she was in love with him, how could see ever say no to him. He was so gorgeous & when he smiled it was the most adorable thing on the planet.
If she truly did love Charlie then why did she have these thoughts about the other man?
If she truly was in love with Charlie she wouldn’t be remembering what it was like to have this man inside of her, to feel him on her, inside her, all around her. If she truly was in love with Charlie she would think of Charlie & only Charlie, not this man who she had forgiven, letting her guard down.
Maybe she didn’t love Charlie & she just stayed with him because she needed company. Like she needed to tell herself she was over this man when she wasn’t. This man knew her better than Charlie ever could & he made her feel so amazing but did Kelly have the heart to leave him?
Was this man really worth it or was Charlie?
Kelly knew that in the end, before she died, she’d have to choose between this man & Charlie.
Her lover or her soul mate.
The pleasure machine or her best friend.
Sawyer or Charlie.

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Sun, 08 Oct 2006 05:30:50 GMT

Title//Sawyer's Princess
Pairing//Sawyer/Rachel
Genre//Drama
Timeline//Throughout Sawyer's life, ending at the flashbacks during Outlaws
Prompt//Sawyer needing depth to his character & needing a girl who was more than just a con seeing is how he can't have Claire
Summary//Growing up in the same adoption shelter James & Rachel become best friends quickly with dramas entwining in their friendship

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James & Rachel lived in the same adoption shelter together. James was the quiet kid who sat in the corner. Rachel was the loud & pretty girl who always had fun. She didn’t spend much time with the girls because they thought she was weird, she spent most of her time playing with the boys. Everyone knew who Rachel Roser was, even James. One day the eight-year-olds finally met. Ray threw a pencil over at James. James merely glanced at the pencil. Rachel shoved Ray as she got up.
“Don’t throw pencils at the new kid you jerk!” Rachel snapped.
“Oh sorry to throw stuff at your boyfriend.” Ray teased.
Rachel rolled her eyes then went over to James. “Did that hit you?”
“No.” James said.
“I’m Rachel.” She said sitting down. “What’s your name?”
“James.”
Rachel smiled at him. “That’s a nice name.”
James looked at the brunette. “Thanks.”
“Do you wanna do a puzzle with me?” Rachel offered.
James shrugged. “Okay.”
From that day on the only person Rachel wanted to hang out with was James. Everyone teased her but she didn’t care. For the first week all they did was sit & do puzzles. Rachel always made James laugh with all her funny stories. James started to warm up to her & the second week she encouraged him to join her outside. Outside was where all the cool kids played & James was a little nervous but Rachel promised she’d take care of him.
Rachel was the first kid in the shelter to become friends with James.
She was also the first & only person but him to read his letter. She was sworn to secrecy which she kept fantastically.

When they were 14 their friendship began to change. They’d always promised to be best friends forever. In class one day they were sitting up the back together. They loved sitting up the back, they could laugh at people & mock them.
“Oh I’m so smart.” Rachel mocked Shane.
James laughed. “Doesn’t it sound like something crawled down his throat & ate his voice box?” James did his best impression of Shane. “Hi I’m Shane.”
Rachel burst out laughing & had to cover her face with her book. She hit James in the arm once the teacher had looked away.
“Oh my god, I’m so close to being expelled.”
James scoffed. “&…?”
“& that’s bad.” Rachel replied.
James shrugged. “They can’t expel you without me.”
“Ooo joy, being expelled with James Ford is my dream.” Rachel mocked. James laughed then Rachel fell serious. “It might be Tara’s dream.”
James rolled his eyes & sighed. “I make-out with her one time & I’m hearing bout it for the rest of my life.”
“So you admit you’ve made-out with her?” Rachel teased.
“Yes.” James muttered.
“Eww!” Rachel cried.
As the teacher looked at them James covered his face with his book.
“Is something wrong Rachel?” The teacher asked.
“A cockroach crawled over my foot, it’s gone now.” Rachel lied.
James laughed at Rachel as she blushed. That night they were sitting together in the study hall. No one else was awake. It was just Rachel & James as usual. Rachel had given up on studying & was drawing something. James kept clicking his fingers in her ear. She was pretending to ignore it until he did it the 15th time. Rachel jumped & tackled him onto the ground. She was on top of him as she glared at him.
“If you do that one time I am going to break you hand, do you understand?” Rachel asked.
“As if you could…” James began. Rachel squeezed his hands tightly. “Okay, I get your point.”
“Good now when…” Rachel was cut off by James flipping them over so he was on top smirking at her. “Oh shit get off me, you know how heavy you are?”
“Actually I don’t, I only know how heavy you are.” He corrected.
Rachel was going to reply but she didn’t seem to have anything to say. James stared into her eyes & saw something different. He didn’t see his best friend, he saw the gorgeous woman Rachel was becoming. Their faces moved closer together & Rachel slowly closed her eyes. James pressed his lips against hers & she received her first kiss. The kiss lasted for a long time but neither seemed to mind. James wanted the kiss to last longer but Rachel pulled away. They stared at each other for a while then James cleared his throat & got off Rachel.
“Sorry.” He said helping her up.
She brushed her curly brown hair out of her eyes. “It’s cool.” She sat down. “Now where was I?”
“I think we should go to bed.” James suggested.
Rachel scoffed. “Ooo James Ford, are you afraid of the dark.”
“Ooo Rachel Roser, you’re bleeding.” James pointed to the back of her p.j’s.
Rachel got up & looked. “Oh holy freakin’ shit.” She screamed then ran out of the room.
James ran after her but was met with the bathroom door slamming in his face. He knocked on the door as he heard it lock. “Curls? You alright?”
“No.” Rachel whined. “Oh this is so gross, but…you know under my bed where I hide my diary…?”
James scoffed. “You couldn’t hide a diary if you wanted to.”
Rachel unlocked the door then her head appeared around the door but the rest of her body was hidden in the bathroom. “Shut up & give me your jacket.”
“No I don’t want your blood all over my stuff.” James protested.
“If you don’t I’ll spill all your blood on the floor.” Rachel threatened.
James took his jacket off & passed it to her. She wrapped it around her wast then opened the door.
“Okay let’s go.” She said casually.
“What happened?” James asked. “Are you alright.”
“Just shut up.” Rachel snapped looking around suspiciously.
“Rachel, what’s wrong?”
Rachel sighed. “You remember in sex-ed & we were talking about the things that guys & girls go through when they get older?”
“Yeah.” James replied slowly.
Rachel flicked him in the middle of his eyebrows. “Well dinkus, I’m a chick & I’m getting older.”
“You mean you’re…?” James asked. Rachel groaned & nodded. “Oh gross.”
Rachel hit his arm. “Thanks jackass.”
“Sorry Curly.” He said. “Do you want to walk you back to your room?”
“Yes.” She replied grabbing onto his arm.

When they were 16 the wild nights began. James had this theory that now they were practically adults they should be able to do whatever the hell they wanted. Rachel just agreed because she wanted to have fun. One night Rachel was up late reading a book when James knocked on her door. She sighed & got up. She looked through the peephole, saw James & smiled. She opened the door & raised her eyebrows at him.
“What on earth are you…?” She stopped seeing what he was holding. “Is that liquor? You brought freakin’ liquor into the school? Get in here right now.”
“Oh jeez anything you say…Mum.” James teased entering the room.
Rachel glared at him as she closed the door. He sat down on her bed & looked at the bed that was upturned on her pillow.
“What the fuck are you readin’ now?” He asked looking at the cover. “What is this? Curls, if you’re gonna read a book at least read something with a simpler name.”
She snatched the book off him. “Well I’m sorry we can’t all read Playboy like you.” She whacked him on the head with the book.
“Ow.” He said swatting her hand away. “So anyway I heard this great game.”
Rachel sighed & sat down on her chair a few meters opposite the chair. “Anything is better than strip freakin’ poker.”
“I suggested that one time as a joke.” James replied. “One time.”
Rachel smirked. “So what’s the game? I think the last game we played was throwing wet toilet paper at Miss Tom.”
James laughed. “That was so worth it, even if we were blind.”
“Yeah then she blamed Shane.” Rachel added.
They both sighed happily at the same time.
“So anyway, drinking game.” James said holding the liquor up.
Rachel groaned. “No drinking games, the last time we played a drinking game I was hung over at school & threw up.”
“Yeah on me. I think we should both agree I’m the only one who suffered.” James said.
Rachel scoffed. “Oh yeah because watching me throwing up & have a bad head-ache all day was so incredibly hard for you & so incredibly easy for me.”
“I had to hear about it.” James protested. Rachel shook her head & laughed.

The next night a huge party was being thrown & James had to tell Rachel. At school he went running up to her & grabbed her from behind. She screamed then realized it was him & hit his arm. He held onto her tightly & whispered into her ear.
“Party at Shane’s, we could totally trash it.” He whispered.
Rachel grinned. “Ooh sounds great.” She closed her locker & stepped on his foot so he’d let her go. “But it’s at Shane’s so it’ll be lame.”
“Uh, hello, Curly do you not remember the last lame party we went to?” James asked. “Do you remember how awesome it was because we were there.”
“Oh yeah that party was great.” Rachel nodded.
“Thank you, I know you love me.” James teased.
Rachel scoffed. “& I know your head is too big to get into that party.”

That night while they were waiting for Shane to open the door Rachel was fiddling with James’ jacket.
“You don’t do the zip up dinkus! Where do you think we are, North Pole?” Rachel asked.
“Shut up its cold.” James snapped doing his jacket back up.
Rachel rolled her eyes & un-did the jacket. “You’re the biggest frog in the world.”
“Ribbett.” James croaked in her face.
“Oh pee-eww, what the hell did you eat this morning?” Rachel asked pinching her nose closed.
“Same as you.” James shrugged.
“Did you knock?” Rachel asked slamming her fist into the wood.
“Just open the door.” James suggested.
“I’m not gonna just open their door, it’s rude.” Rachel replied.
James sighed. “Well I’m sorry Curls but some of us are freezing.”
“You open it.” Rachel ordered poking James.
As he went to open the door it was opened by Shane.
“Rachel, James, I don’t remember inviting you.” Shane stated.
Rachel slapped his arm as she past him & James hit him in the middle of the chest.
“You’ll be glad we came.” James said following Rachel in.
“Okay where’s the booze? Tonight’s Friday & I plan on getting drunk.” Rachel stated.
“Then maybe when you’re drunk you can go make-out with Shane.” James teased.
Rachel hit him across the head then hit him in the chest. “Or maybe you could.”
James made puking noises then threw his jacket on Rachel. She screamed thinking the jacket was actually puke & threw it off herself.
“You are so disgusting.” She stated shoving him.
An hour later James was getting himself a drink he saw Rachel dancing with a bunch of guys watching her. James didn’t like the way the guys were staring at Rachel with their perverted eyes. He watched angrily as one moved closer to her. She stopped dancing as the guy grabbed her arm & whispered something in her ear. She looked disgusted & shoved him away. As the guy went to grab Rachel again James stood in front of her, protecting her from the guy.
“You touch her again & I’ll kill you.” James threatened holding his arm around Rachel behind him.
“Hey c’mon James, she was puttin’ out.” The guy said.
James punched the guy then slammed him against the wall. “She’s putting out nothing you can touch. If you so much as look at her again, I swear to God I’ll kill you.”
“Let’s just go.” Rachel said tugging on his arm. He dropped the guy & James looked at her. “Please.”
“Okay.” James agreed.
When they were going to the school James looked at Rachel.
“You okay?” He asked.
“Yeah.” Rachel shrugged. “Thanks for helping me. You didn’t have to go all macho on his ass but I bet he won’t come near me anymore.”
“You say that like it’s a bad thing.” James said.
Rachel laughed then hit him in the arm. He laughed as well then put his arm around her.
“Are you drunk yet?” James asked.
“No but all I want to do is go to bed.” Rachel replied.
“& read your complicated book?” James teased as they entered the school.
Rachel rolled her eyes as she unlocked her door. “Do you wanna come in?”
“Sure.” James said quickly going into the room & lying down on her bed straight away.
Rachel closed the door & looked at James putting her hands on her hips. “Do you always have to do that?”
“Hell yeah, do you know how soft your bed is compared to mine?” He asked.
She sat down on the bed beside his hip & started taking her shoes off. “You know, you’re the only guy I’ve ever kissed.”
“Yep.” James replied putting a hand on Rachel’s shoulder.
“It’s quite sad actually.” Rachel stated lying down beside him. “I’m 16 & I’ve only been kissed once by my best friend.”
“I could kiss you again.” James offered.
Rachel laughed then hit him in the chest. “Gross.”
“So you want a boyfriend?” James asked.
“I dunno, I guess it’d be nice.” Rachel shrugged.
“Well I’ll find you one.”
“James…”
“No excuses, I know what I’m doing.”

It took James a whole week to find someone for Rachel, due to the fact he didn’t want his best friend to get hurt, Rachel deserved the best. James had Phil waiting for Rachel; all he had to do was convince Rachel.
“Phil?” She asked in disbelief as they went down to the cafeteria. “Freaking Phil the pervert.”
“Just give it a shot Curls, do you really think I’d set you up with a loser?” James said.
Rachel tilted her head to the side in thought. “I guess not.”
“Great, enjoy your date.” James exclaimed shoving her into the hall.

The next morning James found Rachel & Phil kissing privately. His mouth dropped open & he wanted to go rescue her but she looked happy. James restrained from hurting Phil but watched them until Rachel pulled away. Phil said something to her & she laughed. She left the room & ran into James.
“Hey.” She smiled.
“Good morning?’ He asked.
“Yep great, Phil is so awesome.” Rachel grinned.
James forced a smile as he saw Phil behind Rachel chatting up another chick. “That’s great.”
“Yeah thanks heaps for setting us up.” Rachel said as Phil & the random chick held hands with Phil leaning in for a kiss.

The next week James had come to accept the fact that he had to break Rachel’s heart & tell her that he was cheating on her. James went to Rachel’s room to talk to her & found Miss Tom yelling at Rachel. Rachel was staring up at Miss Tom with an expressed that read ‘so what?’.
“Smoking on school grounds, could you really sink any lower?” Miss Tom asked.
“Hey.” James said announcing his entrance. “What’s going on?”
“You are expelled Miss Roser, you have on day to clean your room out.” Miss Tom said before leaving & slamming the door.
James looked at Rachel who pulled her suitcase out. “What did you do?”
“I had a smoke.” Rachel shrugged.
“Curls that stuff can kill you.” James stated.
“So?” Rachel asked.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing.”
“You can’t lie to me Curls.”
“He cheated on me!”
Rachel burst into tears & fell to the ground. James went over to her.
“It’s okay.” He whispered.
“I have no where to go.” Rachel cried. “This is my home.”
“I’m not gonna let anything happen to you.” James said. “I promise.”
Rachel wiped her nose. “That’s sweet but what are you gonna do?”
“Help you pack & you’re moving into my room.” James stated.
“I can’t do that.” Rachel said.
James put his hands on either side of her face & looked her straight in the eyes. “Yes you can, I’m gonna take care of you.”
When they were going to sleep things were awkward.
“If I sleep on the chair you can have the bed.” James offered.
“No you’ve got school tomorrow, you need the bed. I can take the chair now & have the bed when you’re at school.” Rachel replied.
James sighed. “I won’t be able to sleep if you can’t.”
“I can sleep in a chair.” Rachel replied.
“No, I’m not sleeping in that bed if you’re not.” James told her.
“If I sleep in the bed will you?” Rachel asked.
“Yeah.” James nodded.
Rachel climbed into the bed & leant against the wall leaving enough room for James. He got into the bed with her & put his arms around her.
“Uh…James?” She asked.
“Yeah?” He sighed rubbing his tired eyes.
“Can you get my radio on? I can’t sleep without my music.” Rachel said.
James reached out & turned the radio on quietly. Rachel was lying on her side turned toward him & he had his arm around her while he slept on his back. When they woke up they were turned towards each other & James had his arms around her tightly. The alarm sounded waking them both up. Rachel groaned & moved closer to James. He opened his eyes & froze because someone was in the bed with him. He saw Rachel’s short, brown curls & relaxed again. He hit the alarm & it silenced. Rachel sniffed loudly & looked at James.
“Hey.” She yawned.
“Good morning.” He said letting go of her. He sat up slowly. “You sleep okay?”
“Well the bed was uncomfortable but the company was great & cuddly.” She said pulling the covers over her.
James laughed then got up. When he got back to his room he found Rachel sitting at his desk looking at a newspaper.
“Honey I’m home.” He stated.
Rachel looked up & smiled weakly at him. “Hey.”
“Whatcha doin’?” He asked going over to her.
“Looking for a job.” She replied.
“What?” He asked taking the paper off her. “What shit have you got circled? Waitress? Check-out chick? A…what the fuck does that say?”
Rachel snatched the paper off him. “It says the advertising date dinkus! I highlighted it ‘coz I was bored.”
“Curls you can’t do this, let me get a job, let me take care of you. You’ve gotta get into a different school.” James said.
“How in the hell am I supposed to get into a different school, James? I need a guardian with me. My last guardian died when I was 3 & I was dumped at that friggin’ shelter. I go to a new school & that’s where they’ll dump me. If I get my own money I could probably afford my own place & take care of myself.” Rachel explained.
“Curls…” James began.
“You don’t understand! I can’t go back to that life. If I go back to that place you’ll just forget about me.” Rachel said.
James pulled her into a kiss. “I could never forget you.”
“James…” She began.
“Shh.” He whispered kissing her again but this time she kissed back. Their kisses were soft & tender. It was different to any girl James had ever kissed. He cared about Rachel, loved her, his best friend, the only girl he’d ever truly cared about. Rachel pulled away & rested her head on his chest sighing. He put his arms around her.
“James…” She repeated looking up at him. “…do you want things to go further?”
He curled one of her curls around his finger. “Only if you want to.”
“I want to run away.” She suggested.
He laughed quietly. “Me too Curls, but where are we going to go?”
When they were 19 they were living in a small apartment together. Rachel was a waitress & James was working at a supermarket but of a night he was secretly getting himself out of dept by conning people for their money. Rachel was going out with Owen & they had been together for two years. James came home after paying back his dept but getting into a lot of trouble but as usual Rachel rushed up to him like everything was perfect just because he was home.
“Owen asked me to marry him!” Rachel said screaming.
“That’s great Curly but I have some bad news.” James said slowly.
Rachel sighed running a hand through her shoulder-length hair. “Go ahead.”
“Well you know how I was in that business with a friend…?” He began.
“Oh God, this should be ‘good’, get your ass to the lounge room, I gotta sit down.” Rachel said.
Once they were in the lounge room Rachel sat down in her chair & James sat down on the footrest in front of it.
“I kinda got in trouble the other week & I needed 6 grand to pay these guys off.” James said.
“Oh my God.” Rachel gaped taking one of his hands in hers. “Why didn’t you tell me? I could help you.”
“I wanted to help myself, so I found a pretty lady with a dumb husband & I got them to give it to me.” James explained. “I didn’t want to tell you unless I had to & I think I have to go now.”
Rachel’s eyes widened with fear. “Go where? Owen & I want you to be the best man at the wedding.”
“I’m sorry Curls, I’ve done something really bad & now I have to leave, I don’t know when I’ll be able to come back but once they realize I conned them they’ll be after me.” James explained. “I have to change my identity & everything.”
“To what?” Rachel asked tears in her eyes.
“Sawyer.” James replied dryly.
Rachel squeezed his hand fighting back the sensation to let her tears fall. “When will you be back?”
“I don’t know.” James said looking deep into her eyes.
She moved forward. “Promise me this isn’t the end.”
He pulled her into his arms tightly squeezing her as she cried onto his shoulder & tears built in his eyes. “I promise you I’ll be back one day, I’ll never forget about you & I’ll call you all the time.”

When James was 28 he hadn’t spoken to her in a year. He knew where she was & now that he was in Australia he decided to go visit her. He was in Australia to kill Sawyer but he had to go see Rachel. She opened the door with sad puppy dog eyes & James noticed she wasn’t wearing her wedding ring. She screamed & flung her arms around him.
“Oh my God!” She cried holding him tightly as he put his arms around her & noted she had lost a lot of weight as well. “Why haven’t you called you dirty bastard?”
When Rachel was making him a coffee he sat at the bench watching her & he had to bring up the wedding ring.
“How come you’re not wearing your ring?” James asked pointing to her bare finger as she drummed her nails on the bench waiting for the jug to boil.
Rachel sighed & ran a hand through her long straightened hair. “He left me for this other chick. I’m alone again.”
“Oh Rach I’m so sorry I haven’t been here for you.” James said.
Rachel shrugged as the jug clicked & she went over to it. “You’ve been busy, I get it.”
“It’s no excuse.” James said.
“Yes it is, so what’ve you been doing this past year?” Rachel asked pouring the warm water into his mug. “I really missed talking to you, you’re life is so much more exciting than mine. What’s happening in the life of my best friend? Have you got yourself a girl? New job?”
James looked at her seriously as she added milk & a spoon to his mug. “I found Sawyer.”
She paused. “You mean the guy who…?”
“Yeah.”
“You found him?”
“Yeah.”
Rachel went over to James’ side, put her arm around his shoulders & kissed him on the cheek. “That’s great.”
James shrugged taking a sip of his coffee. “I guess so.”
“So where are you staying?” Rachel asked returning to her smiley self beside the straight hair as she sat down on the stool beside his.
“No where.” He shrugged.
She hit his arm. “You’re staying here now.”
“Curls you don’t have to…”
“Yes I do.” She instantly cut in. “You’re my best friend, I haven’t seen you in about forever, you’re staying here no matter how much you complain.”
James smiled weakly at her. “Thanks.”
She grinned & kissed him lightly on the lips. “You’re welcome.”
“I may have to leave quickly, you know?” He asked.
She nodded slowly. “I know, as long as you get it done & you’re happy. I’ll come with you.”
“I don’t even know if it’s him.” James stated.
Rachel shrugged. “Chances are it is.”
But when it came time to shoot Sawyer it wasn’t really him. James sat in the rain thinking. His whole life he’d wanted to kill Sawyer but if James’ parents hadn’t died he wouldn’t have gone to the shelter. He wouldn’t have met Rachel. He realized as the rain fell down on him that he loved Rachel with all his heart. She was the only one who saw him. She understood him. She laughed with him. She made him smile. She was the only person he’d ever loved.
When he arrived back at Rachel’s he was crying but it was because he couldn’t believe how dumb he was. He was so dumb to ever leave her, to kiss another woman & to let her marry that no-good Owen instead of him. All he wanted & needed was Rachel.
She opened the door looking as if she was going to go mad on him.
“James Ford do you have any idea…?” Rachel asked in mock-anger. She saw his upset face & his shaking body with her face completely changing into worry. “What’s wrong?”
He opened his mouth to speak but no words came out. He just stood there with his mouth open shaking his head as more tears fell down his face.
Rachel seemed to understand because she stood forward & put her arms around him. “Shh, it’s okay.”
He put his arms around Rachel & they shared a tight hug. She held onto him tightly rubbing his back & whispering into his ear that it was okay, she was there. James let go of her & she let go as well taking his hands in hers.
“You okay?” She asked smiling hopefully at him.
He stared into her eyes taking a step towards her. He took his hands from hers & put his hands on her face continuing to stare into her eyes. Rachel seemed to know what was happening because she closed her eyes, opened her mouth slightly & put her hands to the front of his jacket making sure he wouldn’t move. Slowly he moved his face to hers & pressed their lips together. It was unlike any kiss they’d ever shared with each other, it was passionate & it turned into many kisses. As they were kissing James let go of Rachel’s face with one hand putting his hand on her back pulling her body up against his then he put his other hand to the back of her head pulling her face closer for more to kiss.
She pulled back slightly & looked away from him catching her breath as he kissed her on the bridge of her nose putting his other hand on her back as well. He kissed her breathlessly right beside her left eye as he put his arms around her in a hug. She brought her arms up around his neck & rested her head against his looking at him.
“Do you want to go into the bedroom?” She asked staring into his eyes.
He nodded slowly & let go of her. She took his hand & led him into her bedroom which was bare from pictures except for a few paintings. One single picture lay on her bedside table & it was of them together when they were 19.
“Curls…” He began as she took his jacket off him.
“Yeah?” She asked taking her robe off to reveal her night gown. “What’s wrong?”
“I don’t wanna hurt you.” He told her.
She put her arms around him again & rested her head on his chest. “You won’t.” She looked up at him & kissed him lightly on the lips. “I’m not a virgin anymore.”
“I don’t mean like that.” He stated putting his arms around her as well. “I mean when I leave, what are you going to do? I’ve already left you once.”
She stared into his eyes hurting building in her eyes. “When we were little you always promised me I was your Princess & you’d never leave me, if you did you’d be back.” She let go of him & took a step back from him. “You can’t leave me again.”
“I just shot a guy, they’ll be after me, I can’t risk them hurting you.” James said.
Rachel looked at him with tears clouding over the hurt in her eyes. “If you leave you’ll be hurting me, I don’t care what they do to me, I just want you.”
“I wanna be with you too but because of all that I’ve done all that would do is hurt you.” James told her.
She shook her head not wanting to believe that he couldn’t hurt her by leaving. “Change then. Change for me, change for a better life, become James Ford again, the man I know & love.”
“I’m scared.” He stated.
She went back over to him & as he was about to speak she put her finger to his lips silencing him. “You don’t have to be scared anymore & you don’t have to be alone.”
“I don’t want to hurt you.” He whispered.
“Then don’t.” She whispered taking her finger away from his lips & pressing her lips against his. “Stay with me.”
“Curls...” He began feeling powerless to her kiss.
She pressed her lips against his again lingering a little longer. “Please.”
Finally giving in he put his hands to the bottom of her nightgown & pulled it off her. Once it was off her they began kissing passionately again. She pulled his shirt off him & they continued kissing with them both trying to stumble over to the bed without breaking off the kisses. She put her arms around his neck as they found the bed & he picked her up putting her on it.
He broke away to look her straight in the eyes. She looked at him in confusion pausing from un-doing his pants.
“What?” She asked quietly.
“I love you.” He said.
She smiled & kissed him on the lips. “I love you too.”
“I’ve loved you from the second I saw you.” He stated.
She finished un-doing his pants & kissed him again. “I thought you were a freak when I first saw you…” She paused to let him laugh then she ran a hand through the front of his hair. “…but you grew on me & I can’t imagine life without you.”
He smiled at her & they began kissing again. Their kisses were now tender, soft & caring like they used to be because they weren’t searching, they knew what they had which was love.

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Sun, 24 Sep 2006 04:43:06 GMT

Title//Innocent Smiles
Pairing//Stephanie/Billy
Genre//Fluff/Drama
Timeline//When Stephanie and Billy first meet
Prompt//Billy doing anything to make Stephanie smile
Summary//Stephanie and Billy enter each others lives unaware of how much they'll need each other...

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Billy sat at his window as the rain poured down over his large house, the ten-year-old had always been fascinated by the rain but he had an extra reason to be looking out the window today. The house across the road that had been under construction for many months was finally finished & a family was moving in today. Last week Billy had seen the family looking around the house & he had seen the family’s daughter.
The girl was small she looked about two years younger than Billy but she was really pretty. Billy had been out the front of his place as the girl wandered around her house looking around looking a little lost. Billy had been struck by her appearance; he had never seen a girl so pretty. She had looked across the road at him her pretty face shaping into a cute smile when she had seen him. He had tripped over his skateboard & landed straight in the mud but it didn’t matter to him how dirty he was because she had laughed at him.
He felt so weird inside when he had seen the girl, what was she & what was she doing to him? She looked magical, like she could cast a spell over him or maybe she was a spell that he had fallen for. She could have been an angel; Billy had heard his family talking about angels before so maybe this girl was one. She fit the description of an angel. She had long golden hair, pale skin & a beautiful smile. When Billy had seen her laughing at him he didn’t feel embarrassed & all he could do in reply was smile dumbly back at her. Once she was done laughing she raised her small hand & waved timidly at him. He wondered if he was seeing things but he didn’t want to make her feel like an idiot so he rose his arm waving back to her. In that instant they were both smiling at each other & Billy felt something he had never felt before.
So today he sat at his window waiting for the family to arrive so he could see the pretty little girl again. He had planned on going out to see her but the rain had kept him inside & he was left to dropping hints to his mother about the new family across the road that she would probably like to meet.
He watched as the car approached with a large moving truck behind it & he felt his heart rate quicken as the doors open to the car. The mother & father got out of the car but he didn’t see the girl anywhere. He slowly opened his window & the heavy rain flew in on him, he jumped out of his window landing on the muddy grass then shut the window behind him. He went over to his tree house & as he was climbing up it he saw the moving truck doors open. A pink umbrella stuck out first before the girl jumped out into a large puddle. He stopped climbing & clung to the tree only being able to climb half of it.
The girl laughed & her whole face shone brighter than the sun that hid underneath the clouds. Her smile faded when her father said something to her but once his back was turned she stepped in the puddle smiling again. Billy smiled at her finding her funny but incredibly stupid to do something after she had been ordering not to. She looked really cute today, she was wearing a pink rain coat over her small body & her golden hair was twisted into two plaits that fell past her shoulders. She stomped her pink gum boots in the puddle one more time then looked up over at Billy’s house. He felt slightly nervous because he must have looked dumb just hanging in the tree watching her.
She squinted her eyes but she didn’t see him at all. She began skipping off to the house jumping in all the puddles she could find.
“Billy?” His mother yelled out.

Stephanie looked out the truck window as the rain poured down on the city that was now her home. The eight-year-old had always hated the rain & how it made everything sad but today she wanted to look out her window at it even though it was evil. She was moving into her new house with her family & she had only seen the house once before. Last week while Stephanie’s parents had been looking around the house she had snuck away to go out the front & she had seen the little boy who lived across the road.
The boy was pretty big compared to Stephanie & he looked about two years older than Stephanie but he was really cute. Stephanie had been wandering around the house when she saw the boy in his front yard looking pretty curious about her. Stephanie had been struck by his appearance; she had never seen a boy so cute. He had watched her from across the road his cute face shaping into an adorable dimpled smile when she had looked back at him. Stephanie had laughed when he had tripped over his skateboard & landed in the mud but he looked up at her looking proud that he had made her smile.
She felt so weird inside when she had seen the boy, how could someone be so cute?
He looked like an angel, like he had been sent from heaven or maybe he was her guardian angel sent to take care of her. He could be evil; Stephanie had heard her grandmother talking about evil creature who took over innocent peoples bodies. But he felt the description of an angel. He had golden, yet shaggy, hair, beautiful blue eyes & the cutest face Stephanie had ever seen. When he had fallen over then smiled at her all she could do was laugh & giggle at him dumbly as if she had lost control of her body. Once she was done laughing she had raised her hand & waved timidly at him hoping she didn’t look like a complete fool. She wondered if she was seeing things when he raised his hand & waved back at her the mud seeping through his shaggy hair. In that instant they were both smiling at each other & Stephanie felt something she had never felt before.
So today she sat looking out the truck window waiting for her new house to come into view so she could see that cute boy again. She had planned to go outside as soon as she got to her new house & play with the boy but the rain had reduced her to going straight into the house & watching him through her window.
She watched as the boys’ house came into view & her heart rate quickened as she saw a shadow sitting looking out a window.
She got out of the truck shoving her umbrella out first to protect her from the rain but once she was out of the truck she jumped down onto the ground & looked around. She saw the boy climbing out of his window & she smiled shyly looking away from him.

Stephanie chased Billy over the field of her backyard. It was two years after Stephanie had moved in & she & Billy were best friends despite the fact that Billy was older. Stephanie didn’t have a care in the world as she chased after Billy because she was ‘it’.
She chased after him feeling out of breath but she wanted to catch him to show him he was wrong & girls were better than boys. As her large house came into view with her parents shadows on the curtain in the bedroom Billy stopped running staring up at the house in confusion. Stephanie didn’t see what he saw so she kept running knowing she would finally catch him now.
She jumped onto his back & hit him on the arm as she clanged onto him. “You’re it!”
As she was about jump off his back they both stopped frozen by the sound of a gun shot rippling through the air from her parents’ room. Billy grabbed onto Stephanie’s hands holding her so she couldn’t get off & he began backing away.
Stephanie wanted to ask him what he was doing but she couldn’t look from her parents’ window to notice it or talk to him. Her mouth was agape in complete shock as she stared up at the shadow of her father who was still pointing the gun straight ahead where her mother had been before she had fell to the ground.
Stephanie didn’t know what was going on, what had just happened or why Billy was now sprinting as fast as he could from the house while she stared over her shoulder at the window seeing her father frozen wondering what he was doing as well.
“Billy…” Stephanie finally coughed out.
Billy jumped over a log supporting Stephanie by grabbing onto her arms as he entered the small forest-like walkway behind Stephanie’s house.
“It’s okay Steph, he won’t find us here.” Billy replied slowing down slightly looking around a little confused.
“Billy.” Stephanie repeated unable to say anything else.
Billy slowed to a walk & turned around looking back at the field where only Stephanie’s fathers’ shed was seen. He panted & turned back to the walkway that lead to town in front of him.
“Billy.” Stephanie repeated staring straight ahead of her, her brain going into overdrive, she didn’t know what was going on or why she couldn’t say anything but Billy’s name.
“It’s okay.” Billy told her rubbing her arm softly.
She dropped her legs from around him her head resting against his feeling her brain work again. “Is she dead?”
“I don’t know.” Billy replied his voice honest but full of sorrow as well.
“I’m scared.” Stephanie whispered clinging to him tightly with her arms.
Billy looked up at her. “I’ll take care of you.”

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Sun, 10 Sep 2006 04:26:06 GMT

Title//We May Never Meet again
Pairing//Jack/Kate
Genre//Romance/Drama
Timeline//Middle of season 2 but AU
Prompt//'We may never meet again so shed your skin and let's get started' taken from the song Throw Your Arms Around Me preformed by Hunters & Collectors
Summary//The survivors are finally getting rescued but Jack & Kate are worried of loosing each other. They spend their final night in the hatch taking things to the next level.

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“I’m so scared.” Kate whispered to Jack as he held her.
“I know.” He replied. He kissed her on the head. “But it’s gonna be okay. I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”
Kate smiled, that was so typical Jack. They’d been on the island for a year & Kate was finally with Jack. They were finally getting rescued & they had this night & this night only to say goodbye to their perfect island life. Kate was scared of what would happen to her when they left the island. A year wasn’t such a long time & she was probably still wanted by the police. She lifted her head from Jack’s chest & looked at him.
“I don’t want to loose you.” She slowly kissed him. “But I now that I’m going to but that doesn’t mean I want it to be true.”
He ran a hand through her curly hair slowly. “I know.” He kissed her tenderly. “& I don’t want to loose you either.”
She looked deep into his brown, puppy-dog eyes. “I think I’m ready.”
He furrowed his brow. “For what?”
She smiled & kissed him slowly again. “What we’ve been saving.”
“Oh…that.” He said.
“Uh-huh.” She nodded.
He looked around at the cave. A couple of people were inside. He looked back at Kate. “I think we should go some where more private.”
She got up then he did the same. They walked hand-in-hand to the hatch. Kate went in first & Jack followed looking around to check no one else was there. Kate pulled him into a kiss.
“We’re all alone.”
He rested his hands on her hips. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah everyone’s at the…”
“No, I mean about this.” Jack cut in.
She nodded. “I love you.”
He smiled & they started kissing. Slowly they backed into the bedroom. Jack watched Kate as she sat down & pulled her clothes off then pulled him to her. Jack took his clothes off as well & soon they were kissing intensely. The sun slowly rose as Jack & Kate slept down in the hatch. They were curled up in the bottom bunk together. Kate’s head rested on Jack’s bare chest & his arms were wrapped around her. Jack slowly blinked his eyes open when he heard the hatch open. He lifted his head slightly & saw his & Kate’s bodies were covered by the blanket. He relaxed again & rested his head against Kate’s. As he was closing his eyes again he heard Hurley’s voice.
“Dude.”
Jack’s eyes snapped open. He saw Hurley standing staring at them. Jack sighed & pulled Kate closer to him. “Good morning Hurley.”
“Hey…so…the…uh…the people are here.” Hurley stuttered.
Jack sighed. He thought it had all been a dream. That no one really was coming & that Kate was just ready but he was wrong. “We’ll be out there in a minute.”
Hurley nodded & left. Jack sat up slowly keeping Kate close to him.
“Hey, hey, Kate. Wake up.” He whispered into her ear before kissing her head. “C’mon Kate wake up.”
“Yeah?” She mumbled softly.
Jack smiled as she looked at him with her gorgeous hazel eyes. “Good morning.”
She smiled back & kissed him. “It is a good morning.” She sat up in his embrace & faced him. So now she was sitting with her legs crossed across his straight legs with her arms around his neck while his hands rested on her bare hips. They started kissing again but Jack pulled away.
“We have to go.”
Tears were building up in Kate’s eyes. “I don’t want to.”
“We have to.” Jack whispered.
Kate nodded. When they were back in their clothes they walked out of the hatch to the beach. Kate didn’t hold Jack’s hand as he offered. She just walked beside him looking life-less. Jack looked at her.
“Kate, it’s gonna be okay. I’m not gonna let them take you away from me.” He said.
Later when they touched down in L.A Jack watched hopelessly as Kate was taken away in hand-cuffs. She wasn’t agreeing though. She was arguing. She saw Jack & yelled to him.
“Jack! Jack.” She screamed.
He ran over to her & pulled her into his arms. “Shh, its okay, I’ll get you out of this mess.”
She looked at him with teary eyes. “I love you.”
He pulled her into a long, deep, passionate, tender kiss. “I love you too.”
“Step back sir.” The officer ordered.
“No. You can’t take her.” Jack yelled as Kate was put into the police care. “You can’t do this to her.”
“Jack…” Kate began. Jack looked at her. “…please don’t make this any harder than it already is.”
He bent down & shoved his head through the window. “I’ll get you out of this.”
She nodded slowly as tears fell down her face. “I love you.”
“I love you too.” Jack said as he was pulled out of the car which was beginning to move. He ran after the car. “Kate! Kate!” She looked through the back window & he stopped running. “I love you.”
She smiled a little bit & put her hand on the glass. Jack put his hand up in the air & smiled to her. The car turned on the road & she was gone.

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Mon, 04 Sep 2006 07:09:02 GMT

Title//Dreaming
Pairing//Sawyer/Kelly
Genre//Fluff
Timeline//Old ALS timeline
Prompt//Sawyer watching Kelly while she's sleeping
Summary//Sawyer can't sleep and he gets distracted by thinking about Kelly...

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The rain & the wind hit against the window harshly as the night went on. Sawyer couldn’t sleep; he was sitting up watching the window. His mind wasn’t racing & nothing was wrong with him he just couldn’t sleep. He watched the rain fall down the window & could hear the faint sound of Kelly moaning in her sleep. Elly was snoring quietly from the window sill where she slept beside Alyssa. Alyssa was awake & staring out the window with her tail swishing to the beat of the wind. Sawyer watched the cat for a while then sighed.
He was getting frustrated with not sleeping. He felt tired & right now he wanted nothing more than to curl up beside Kelly then fall asleep. He knew he wouldn’t be able to any time soon but it was better than watching the rain & Alyssa’s tail.
He turned with his back to the window & his front to Kelly. She was always at her most beautiful when she was sleeping. She was so peaceful & perfect. The only sound that came from her frail body was her soft moaning that she made every night when she was really tired.
Sawyer had become used to this sound & even enjoyed it sometimes. It calmed his heart to know that Kelly was okay.
He reached out & softly ran a hand through her soft, golden hair that was scattered across her pillow. A small smile came onto her lips & her moaning stopped. She moved her head to the side to look at him even though her eyes were closed.
White blankets over her beautiful eyes. Her black eyelashes curled naturally & never looked out of place or messed. Slowly her eyes blinked open. Only a slit of her eyes was seen but it was enough.
Sawyer could now see the blue in her eyes. The blue that would always hold Kelly’s innocence even if she didn’t like to admit that she had any innocence left. Her eyelids fluttered as she looked over at Sawyer.
“Sawyer?” Her small voice squeaked.
Her voice was always cutely high when she had just woken up & it always put a smile on Sawyer’s face. It was no different this smile as he smiled at her leaving his hand amongst her golden hair which had tangled around his fingers.
“Yeah?” He asked.
Her nose scrunched up in concentration. “What’s the time?”
Sawyer rolled his eyes at the randomness of the question. Kelly always asked weird questions in the middle of the night but Sawyer always answered them no matter how weird they were, he’d always answer Kelly when she called.
“It’s not morning yet, go back to sleep.” Sawyer ordered softly.
“Okay.” Kelly nodded smiling again. She moved her head onto her shoulder & made soft chewing noises until she was asleep again.
It only took her a few minutes to fall asleep again & she was making soft moaning sounds again. She was incredibly cute as she made chewing noises. Sawyer would never understand why she made sounds while she slept or why it made her look so adorable, it just did.
Everything about Kelly was cute, beautiful, adorable & perfect.
When Sawyer awoke the next morning he was still sitting up but he was hunched over & Kelly’s head was resting on one of his knees. He grunted & jumped slightly as he woke up. Kelly’s head fell onto the bed & her eyes scrunched in confusion.
“What the…?” She groaned sitting up slowly.
After a few minutes they were both awake & lying in bed together. Kelly’s head was rested on Sawyer’s chest & he had his arms around her tightly.
“What’d you dream about last night?” She asked.
He paused suddenly realizing why he couldn’t sleep. He couldn’t sleep because there was nothing to dream about. Everything he had ever dreamt of having was in his arms, Kelly was a dream & if she was a dream he never wanted to wake up.
He would spend his whole life dreaming if only to be with Kelly.

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